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Ode to the Supermarket

went shopping, what a nightmare, my sister drove to.... (take out the name in case they sue me. lol)-the f**king price is never right for me, the music please no music not the music, i was off-a bad day, she couldn?t park, I got out and directed and half shouting tell her to f**king get on with it, tense every delay is a delicate slice of the razor across my patience, she gets out the car laughing half scolding, f**k she?s so cool and calm it almost annoys me, I get the trolley and push across the threshold into the stadium of despairand i, at the centre, nausea nausea everywhere n?ere a drop of sanity to drink, f*k I can?t face this: the music the bells the bells it?s all ringing in my ears: the music-strains of nausea in the air-and at our bakery counter bakewell tarts are two for the price of one and we have great deals on children?s clothes at the moment, do I f**king care just switch it off my brain I turn down the volume and reality fades, i like the quite life now but please not with this (un)reality filtering in-it?s like trailer parks life?s scrap yards telephone boxes that smell of p**s waking in your vomit stagnant water a beach when it?s raining: f**king hell I hate it I cannot bear the (sur)reality of this, supermarkets the worst of all, stop can I tell you, what sam, nothing it?s ok I?ll just wait here you get produce stuff, it?s like under the bridge, what?, you know the red hot chilli peppers, yeah sam you wait here like a good girl, I don?t ever want to feel like I did (this) day, take me far away, take all the way, it?s hard to believe, it?s hard to believe that I?m all alone, and I don?t ever wanna feel????., f**k why don?t they play something like that and not this s**t, and at our produce counterSHUTUP!
 

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Whatever we experience in the world appears to be caused by our reaction to what is outside of ourselves.

If you are desperately hungry or thirsty, a supermarket is a wonderful place.

Nothing can induce in us what isn't already within us.
 

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Yes you are correct in your assertion that supermarkets are wonderful places (for most people) to make purchases and the same is also true of many other big stores. However, I am just interested to know if other people get severe dp/dr when in a big retail outlet (on the warehouse type model) with the long aisles, people wheeling their trolleys and the canned music and announcements. I find them almost surreal.

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yes. I find that it's mainly to do with the flourescent lights and the rows of similar products. It just seems to induce massive DP, so much sometimes that it hurts at the back of my eyes. It's not as bad as it was a couple of months ago. My advice is that once you start to feel it put it out of your head, take long breaths and find something to distract yourself, like talking to someone who is with you. I think most people who suffer with DP get this sensation in bright or flourescent lights. hope this helps.
 

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I like supermarkets.

When I had dp/dr, one of the most recurring times for dp/dr episodes would be from tranferring from outside light to artificial like indoor shop lights.

People with epilepsy have problems with reacting strangely to light, I think when I had it, it was my sort of my brain reacting to adjustment strangely.

I had the exact same feelings, as you described.

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Actually, I had forotten that maybe it need not always be quite so bad. The first time I was in the US I went to a supermarket at 3.00am (I think it was called Kroger), a novelty for me, and I actually found the emptiness quite pleasant. Maybe it's all the trolleys and people with me packed into these narrow spaces then the queuing like cattle at the checkout.
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sojourner said:

Nothing can induce in us what isn't already within us.
and i absolutely agree

youre freaked out ANYWAY. it's not the supermarket. the supermarket can make it worse but you must keep going out to there and other places and soon you will overcome the fear. because you will realize that's not the source of your fear.
 

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Before I had DP, I hated shoping with florescent lights it increased my anxiety tremendously. My mother is the same.
I LOVE shopping and spending money, some would say I have an addiction to shopping, but when I dont feel well it wont work with the lights, and BAM out of nowhere it can strike up!
For me, I agree store lighting sucks
 
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