[rainboteers]

Hey! I am new to this, but I am so glad to have found this. I was sure I was going crazy. I have only been going through this for about a month, and I hope it goes away soon. I am really depressed. Does anyone else feel like they miss who they used to be? It is almost like I am lonely and wanting so badly to feel like the old me. Like I am losing my sense of self.

 

[Guest]

every day i want to be back to the old me, i am almost there

 

[Depersonalized]

Lately I get this feeling like I am so close to being myself again yet so far away, its wierd.

 

[enngirl5]

I had that feeling really bad at the beginning, but you'll be your old self again soon. It happens slowly but don't worry about losing yourself or anything. You're the same you, you're just scared and depressed. It will get better. I promise. All the new people that come here freak out at first, and a few months or a year later you slowly see them getting better and then they're giving other people advice. lol. I know how much all this sucks. Check out the ebook at the top of the forum.

 

[Isobel]

ive been getting my sense of self back sort of

but ive been worried lately like, 'What if it doesnt feel the same as it did before?' sort of thoughts

everything still seems fragmented though

 

[rainboteers]

Thanks so much, it is so great that someone can finally understand how I have been feeling without thinking that I am completely crazy. My counselor said it sounded like PTSD, but I haven't been through anything THAT traumatic. I don't even want to talk to anyone because I just don't feel like me. My friend says I am in the prodromal stage of schizophrenia. I hope that is not true.

 

[enngirl5]

Don't you love friends? They read something in a book and want to diagnose everyone with it. I know what it's like talking to people when you feel so weird. Whe I was going through that really bad I would basically just fake it and act like I felt fine, or if its too bad say you don't feel good and go lay down in your room alone. Again, things will get better soon. :wink:

 

[Phill]

Rainboteers, You've only had it for a month, I've had it for 14 years.
Don't be depressed if it's only been 1 month, be depressed if it's been
14 years. You have a good chance of it healing.
Not that i don't.

 

[rainboteers]

I am going to try and not be depressed about it anymore. I think the inital shock of it just scared the hell out of me. My counselor and Dr. assure me that I am anything but crazy, and I know they are right. So I don't feel like me? Screw it, I will just build a better me.

 

[Phill]

Way to go!