[iamsufferingalotlmao]

My dissociation has been slowly getting worse for 18 months. When it gets worse, it is like I am sent further into a different level of awareness/degree of consciousness. Much in the same way that it is difficult to describe being drunk to someone who has never been drunk, words fall short when I try to describe how I experience dissociation as a degenerative disease. It feels like a certain chunk of my brain has slowly eroded. Each time I get worse, I experience reality in a fundamentally more dissociated way. Its like a whole different part of the brain system you take for granted as being stable takes jumps back. This is why it is almost impossible for me to describe to my doctors, as I feel like I fall outside of the current medical knowledge.

Does anyone else have similar experiences? I've had spect scans, eeg's, mri's, and qeeg's that pretty much rule out real brain damage, so that is that. What could possibly be happening?

 

[SJ00]

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[Fae]

Idk what could be happening to cause this but i experiance the same thing. Its like moving through different planes of reality. Neverending and each state different.

 

[iamsufferingalotlmao]

Do you have any other mental health conditions like anxiety ?

 

[iamsufferingalotlmao]

Do you have any other mental health conditions like anxiety ?

Psychological no. I have the most bizarre hellish neurological symptoms. I relate most to people when they describe seizure auras, but constant. Complete brain meltdown, confusion, torture. Nearly impossible to describe.

 

[iamsufferingalotlmao]

Idk what could be happening to cause this but i experiance the same thing. Its like moving through different planes of reality. Neverending and each state different.

does it just get worse?

 

[SJ00]

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[SJ00]

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[iamsufferingalotlmao]

Sorry I just noticed you said it's been getting worse for the past 18 months, so you had it beforehand as well obviously just not as severe? Is there anything that makes it worse ? Or all of this happens by itself randomly?

I've had it incredibly severe for 18 months after a bad night with weed. The severity of it knows no bounds and just gets worse. Also it is chronic, it doesn't just come and go. Nothing seems to make it worse except these aura anxiety type things that leave me permanently worse.

 

[SJ00]

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[lolwhat]

You mean it IS progressive in stages and IT does not get Back to the previous Form & you live from the previous Form and then the Overall awareness/total perception Off All Things Drops again and the total capacity of the 5 senses to Take on Input gets LEss and then you Go on with LEss and a week later it's LEss again...

 

[lolwhat]

I can't relate with being hyperaware of everything but rather becoming hyperunaware because I löst more and more space. I Just write because I can relate

 

[lolwhat]

And i feel Like time and space within the brain are reducing. Like I feel I have No time & can't multitask much.

 

[lolwhat]

Feel Like running on 1/2000 of total awareness... 6 months before it was 1/1500...Last year it was 1/1000.

 

[lolwhat]

I percieved this daily reduction in Overall awareness progressively for 20 months daily and don't even Unserstand how to even grasp it myself.