[Justinian585]

It's late so I'm going to keep this short (I'll post a longer thread tomorrow probably), but I'm currently unsure if I even have depersonalization. It may just be general anxiety, or possibly something else. I display certain symptoms of the disorder such as an inability to concentrate on things I previously could, nervousness/fear/anxiety when I'm not occupied, and just a spacey feeling like my mind is clouded 24/7.
I do NOT however feel numb, like life is a dream, like my limbs are distorted or that I cannot control my body.
My experience began 11 days ago after a bad experience with Marijuana and a 36 hour panic attack that resulted from that, and I did feel all the symptoms (even the ones I no longer feel) for about a week before I began recovery. The last few days I have felt near cured, but last night I had a panic attack again and now I feel set back greatly.
So do you think it's DP/DR, or just general anxiety from the traumatic panic attack? When I go outside and socialize with people I feel 95% back to normal. It's when I'm unoccupied (trying to fall asleep is hell) that I get these horrible feelings.

 

[Justinian585]

I think that's what I have too. I hear people's stories on here and it's barely what I feel. I think my worrying about this disorder is what's causing it to persist, but it's very hard to not worry, you know?

 

[Justinian585]

Hmmm... maybe I actually do have it. I walked to the store earlier today and began feeling like my mind was in autopilot, just as many people describe with DP. Once that happened, my anxiety kicked in again and now I feel like sh*t.

 

[Justinian585]

Get off this site now before u get shit into ur head.

I'm trying, but it's hard. I'm somewhat scared and seeking answers, even though I already know them to be honest. I can't explain it, but you're right this site is 90% negativity.