[Justinian585]

It's late so I'm going to keep this short (I'll post a longer thread tomorrow probably), but I'm currently unsure if I even have depersonalization. It may just be general anxiety, or possibly something else. I display certain symptoms of the disorder such as an inability to concentrate on things I previously could, nervousness/fear/anxiety when I'm not occupied, and just a spacey feeling like my mind is clouded 24/7.
I do NOT however feel numb, like life is a dream, like my limbs are distorted or that I cannot control my body.
My experience began 11 days ago after a bad experience with Marijuana and a 36 hour panic attack that resulted from that, and I did feel all the symptoms (even the ones I no longer feel) for about a week before I began recovery. The last few days I have felt near cured, but last night I had a panic attack again and now I feel set back greatly.
So do you think it's DP/DR, or just general anxiety from the traumatic panic attack? When I go outside and socialize with people I feel 95% back to normal. It's when I'm unoccupied (trying to fall asleep is hell) that I get these horrible feelings.

 

[gasspanicc]

Youll be fine, I use to just have minor dp. Passed before yoiu can blink

 

[Justinian585]

I think that's what I have too. I hear people's stories on here and it's barely what I feel. I think my worrying about this disorder is what's causing it to persist, but it's very hard to not worry, you know?

 

[opie37060]

It sounds like to me that you have small case of anxiety and panic disorder from smoking. The first time I ever had a panic attack was off of weed and felt just like what you describe. Depersonalization is feeling as if everything is a dream or seeing things as if they are not real. etc. But what you describe sounds like what I used to feel before I had dp and just had anxiety problems. I had anxiety and panic attacks for nearly 10 years before I got dp. What helped my anxiety was meds and socializing but everyone is different and meds aren't for everyone.

 

[Justinian585]

Hmmm... maybe I actually do have it. I walked to the store earlier today and began feeling like my mind was in autopilot, just as many people describe with DP. Once that happened, my anxiety kicked in again and now I feel like sh*t.

 

[gasspanicc]

Get off this site now before u get shit into ur head.

 

[Justinian585]

Get off this site now before u get shit into ur head.

I'm trying, but it's hard. I'm somewhat scared and seeking answers, even though I already know them to be honest. I can't explain it, but you're right this site is 90% negativity.

 

[gasspanicc]

Its nothing to do with negativity, your mind isnt trained to handle,these,kind thoughts\perceptions. I was once young with this,disorder then got it again because I ate weed brownies. Do yourself a favour, it will go away, if you just let it be there without analuzing it. Thats all you need. Now begone, live your life. And if you can help it, dont touch weed ever again.

 

[gasspanicc]

You will just create,more hell for urself and talk urself into shit if u keep coming

 

[brokenlift]

Hi there.

Good topic,, and relevant. I think that you have had a very lucky brush with the experience of dissociation or dp/dr. It is not treatable per say. What is treatable is the anxiety and depression underneath it. If I were you I would not get stuck in a debate with yourself if you have it or dont have it or if you can or cant improve your experience by further research. This is sewing dragons teeth per say. You wont analyze your way out of your head, you can only do this by action and distraction.I dont think that you need to worry. But you will make it tricky if you start an endless debate with yourself on the topic. Go and have some fun without getting stoned, or out of your head. Gud luck.