Does anyone have this thing full blown and remember what life is supposed to feel Like? Like feeling alive, like an actual human being, with feelings...and a mind inside of their head looking through their own eyes. I keep thinking what that’s like even tho I loved it for 18 years. The memory of ever living before has vanished. I look at people and wonder what life is really like like how they’re living and how they feel throughout their day. What does a day even feel like? What does having a soul feel like? Feeling an atmosphere? Feeling love? Having a mood...everything. Its just all gone. The whole human experience...gone. Why does this hell exist I will never comprehend it. How something like this is posssible without it being some serious disease boggles my mind. No human on earth is put here to feel this way not even for a second. Having any type of life again seems like a far far impossible dream that’ll never come true.