[mana_war]

Do you allow yourself to be 'weak'? to break down?​

Do you have/feel an aversion to vulnerability?(feeling , being,or acting in a vulnerable way, ex: crying in front of others, explaining to someone how much they mean to you,being honest in therapy not defensive or suspicious or apathetic)

Yes	11	61.11%
No	7	38.89%

If so, How strong would you rate that aversion of yours on a scale from 1-10?

1	3	16.67%
2	1	5.56%
3	0	0.00%
4	0	0.00%
5	2	11.11%
6	1	5.56%
7	4	22.22%
8	2	11.11%
9	0	0.00%
10	1	5.56%
NA(pick if said no to Question 1)	4	22.22%

Again if yes, Have you ever been in a way proud/happy about that trait(being in-vulnerable?

Yes	8	44.44%
No	4	22.22%
I do not feel an aversion to vulnerability(pick if said no to Question 1)	6	33.33%

 

[mana_war]

Just trying to put things together in my head.

 

[mana_war]

I completely understand...this for me used to be so strong i prob wouldnt even admit it to a poll like this. So in denial even to myself...but I didn't want to be 'weak' even through I was the only one saying that to myself. Truth is I am weak. I am hurt. I am scared and I am inable to make myself feel safe. I wish someone would give me a hug and tell me its okay. I feel alone. I feel strange. The past hurts but the future is even more scary to me. I need friends. I need to be my own friend. I would never write this stuff a while back...but it is true. I am a perfectionist, overcompensatng for my lack of control in my life...and maybe because its a way to validate myself that my 'rational' not emotional self can appreciate and not be ashamed of.
Anyway thanks for sharing

Voters I am noticing a few of you are confused. If it is No for Question 1 pick NA for Question 2!!

 

[mana_war]

Also please vote guys, if you're here just take the minute.