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Do you allow yourself to be 'weak'? to break down?
Do you have/feel an aversion to vulnerability?(feeling , being,or acting in a vulnerable way, ex: crying in front of others, explaining to someone how much they mean to you,being honest in therapy not defensive or suspicious or apathetic)
Yes1161.11%
No738.89%
If so, How strong would you rate that aversion of yours on a scale from 1-10?
1316.67%
215.56%
300.00%
400.00%
5211.11%
615.56%
7422.22%
8211.11%
900.00%
1015.56%
NA(pick if said no to Question 1)422.22%
Again if yes, Have you ever been in a way proud/happy about that trait(being in-vulnerable?
Yes844.44%
No422.22%
I do not feel an aversion to vulnerability(pick if said no to Question 1)633.33%
 

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Sent in my votes. But here's my more in-depth answer.

Yes, I often feel as if I have an aversion to vulnerability. I rarely show my true emotions ever since I've gotten DP/DR, and it's quite hard to deal with. With this condition, I often believe that I have to avoid being vulnerable at all costs, because I feel like that if people are exposed to my vulnerable side, they will use this part of me against me. Plus, I have these feelings as if showing emotions makes you weak. Deep down inside, I know that it's quite the opposite, yet I cannot shake the domineering 'if-you-show-your-emotions-you're-automatically-weak' feeling.
 

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I completely understand...this for me used to be so strong i prob wouldnt even admit it to a poll like this. So in denial even to myself...but I didn't want to be 'weak' even through I was the only one saying that to myself. Truth is I am weak. I am hurt. I am scared and I am inable to make myself feel safe. I wish someone would give me a hug and tell me its okay. I feel alone. I feel strange. The past hurts but the future is even more scary to me. I need friends. I need to be my own friend. I would never write this stuff a while back...but it is true. I am a perfectionist, overcompensatng for my lack of control in my life...and maybe because its a way to validate myself that my 'rational' not emotional self can appreciate and not be ashamed of.
Anyway thanks for sharing :)

Voters I am noticing a few of you are confused. If it is No for Question 1 pick NA for Question 2!!
 

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I never felt an aversion to vulnerability, though I was constantly told while growing up that I should. If I felt like crying, I would cry. If I struggled with a friend moving away or leaving my job, I would tell them how I feel about them, often in a way that made them feel very uncomfortable (I realize that in retrospect). But it was almost a compulsion I had.

Of course, now I don't feel much of anything towards other people or life events, so there's really nothing towards which to be vulnerable anymore.
 
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