I am contemplating whether or not to drink right now... it is Friday, I always drink either Friday or Saturday or both.
For me drinking helps me feel more real I guess you could say... I feel alive, no DP. Or maybe I just don't remember the DP. Whatever, it makes me feel good. But the next day it is hell. My DP is worse than before. It didn't used to be like that though. I used to be fine the day after, as fine as I ever am anyway. I blame the increased DP the next day on my old psychiatrist. He used to tell me how alcohol makes anxiety and depression worse after it wears off. And all the sudden it started happening. Or maybe it's just cuz I'm getting old.
For me drinking helps me feel more real I guess you could say... I feel alive, no DP. Or maybe I just don't remember the DP. Whatever, it makes me feel good. But the next day it is hell. My DP is worse than before. It didn't used to be like that though. I used to be fine the day after, as fine as I ever am anyway. I blame the increased DP the next day on my old psychiatrist. He used to tell me how alcohol makes anxiety and depression worse after it wears off. And all the sudden it started happening. Or maybe it's just cuz I'm getting old.
