I've been meaning to look up long-term effects of alcohol abuse online. And I finally did it tonight.
I thought about quitting. I want to, but at the same time I just don't know. I copied some info I found below in case anyone else is interested in this.
"What is known, said Durazzo, is that smokers tend to consume more alcohol than non-smokers. It is also known that chronic alcohol dependence can damage alcoholics' brains, particularly the frontal lobes, which are critically involved in higher-order cognitive functions such as problem solving, reasoning, abstraction, planning, foresight, short-term memory, and emotional regulation."
"Areas of the brain that are active with specific tasks need oxygenated blood to nourish the active areas," Taper says. "During memory tasks, the women with a drinking history had less oxygenated blood in the frontal and parietal lobes of the brain. These are areas needed for a variety of everyday tasks, such as finding our way around or handling all the information that bombards us on a daily basis."
Based on this info I really should quit drinking. My emotions were irregular before I even started drinking... know wonder my DP is getting worse. And no wonder I always feel so overwhelmed.
But I don't know if this is even possible for me to do. Drinking is the only thing that relieves me of DP, even if it is just for a short time and I feel 10 times worse the next day. It's like it's almost worth it just for those few hours of happiness.
Alcohol is the only thing that allows me to feel close to other people. I'm extremely shy and don't talk unless I'm drunk. Even around my relatives. So now everytime there is a get-together I have to drink. Otherwise I just sit there and leave feeling alienated from my family. It's depressing.
It's like I have to drink on special occasions to ensure I have a good time. I remember I got really pissed off one year cuz my friend wanted to go sit at a restaurant on the fourth of july and I wanted to go drink. I couldn't at the restaurant cuz I was underage at the time. If I do go through a holiday without drinking I usually regret it cuz I have a miserable time. Although I do regret stuff a lot more often BECAUSE I drink. But at least I was happy at the time.
Shit I don't know. I guess I need to go to AA.
I thought about quitting. I want to, but at the same time I just don't know. I copied some info I found below in case anyone else is interested in this.
"What is known, said Durazzo, is that smokers tend to consume more alcohol than non-smokers. It is also known that chronic alcohol dependence can damage alcoholics' brains, particularly the frontal lobes, which are critically involved in higher-order cognitive functions such as problem solving, reasoning, abstraction, planning, foresight, short-term memory, and emotional regulation."
"Areas of the brain that are active with specific tasks need oxygenated blood to nourish the active areas," Taper says. "During memory tasks, the women with a drinking history had less oxygenated blood in the frontal and parietal lobes of the brain. These are areas needed for a variety of everyday tasks, such as finding our way around or handling all the information that bombards us on a daily basis."
Based on this info I really should quit drinking. My emotions were irregular before I even started drinking... know wonder my DP is getting worse. And no wonder I always feel so overwhelmed.
But I don't know if this is even possible for me to do. Drinking is the only thing that relieves me of DP, even if it is just for a short time and I feel 10 times worse the next day. It's like it's almost worth it just for those few hours of happiness.
Alcohol is the only thing that allows me to feel close to other people. I'm extremely shy and don't talk unless I'm drunk. Even around my relatives. So now everytime there is a get-together I have to drink. Otherwise I just sit there and leave feeling alienated from my family. It's depressing.
It's like I have to drink on special occasions to ensure I have a good time. I remember I got really pissed off one year cuz my friend wanted to go sit at a restaurant on the fourth of july and I wanted to go drink. I couldn't at the restaurant cuz I was underage at the time. If I do go through a holiday without drinking I usually regret it cuz I have a miserable time. Although I do regret stuff a lot more often BECAUSE I drink. But at least I was happy at the time.
Shit I don't know. I guess I need to go to AA.
