Alright I'll admit, it probably is narcissism. But is there any way to fix narcissism with everything we've gathered about the world around us so far? I mean, he way I truthfully perceive the world is that it's full of too many "idiots" who don't look into what reality is all about enough. Truthfully, I'm full of... confusion toward the world and how I'm supposed to be a part of it with all that I've "realized" about it. And that comes from the part of myself which is my core understanding of things and core values system. I admit, I'm a narcissist, no matter how many people I meet, no one impresses me, I'm always able to tell myself "I could do that... if I put in the effort" and I tend to know that it's true. And when I first developed this disorder, I somehow thought I was meant to have it and was significant in the world for having it with all its perceptual advantages. I have no real intention to re-assimilate into the world of minds who would rather live carelessly than carefully. And because of that, DP persists, but I am not so incompatible with the world. I've learned how to act, how to look like I'm living, learned to enjoy genuine things and see past the masks others wear. I can look at the behavior of a person for a few minutes and nearly determine everything about them. I'm a narcissist, although speaking from the mask, I will say I care about people and do not wish to think such things as I do about them. But now I find out that DP has a name and other people have it. Of course we all have the same narcissistic personalities and all the other personality traits which belong to it. And honestly, I'm happy to know that this world has more "genuine" people such as myself. Many good leaders probably had DP, and more likely many evil leaders had it too, like Hitler. I actually walk around school and see straight into people who have DP and can single them out. In fact, before I knew DP existed, I named them "chosens" in my mind since I'm so goddamned narcissistic. But I'll live through a mask never knowing myself because my true self is someone I need to hide, someone who cares too much about himself to be socially viable. I want to help others, because it makes me feel good about myself and makes me feel like I'm doing the right thing. From the mask, it gives me the personality trait of someone who genuinely likes to help others, and that is a viable assimilation in my mind which allows me to live life well off enough. I even had to lie in the above post to say I don't have narcissism just to protect my unmasked self's ego. Now, I'm not sure how normal all this is with people who have DP. Perhaps I'm just the antichrist for it all.