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Do people experience an episode beyond an episode? Sometimes when I am having a really bad episode all of a sudden the pain and chaos and apathy will completely disappear and I will be completely fine, better than fine, great. Dissociated from my dissociation to the point that I will feel nothing about a painful experience that just happened or the intensity of an episode. Sometimes I completely deny that anything is wrong with me, even though yesterday it felt like I was wearing someone else's decaying corpse... or was self harming from the pain and chaos of being lost in space. I have been attributing this to mania, or splitting in bpd but wanted to ask here if that was a common experience. Usually this other type of episode ends back in the painful more typical severe dpdr episode because my brain can't pretend anymore that everything is fine. It feels like you are going crazy and your brain is breaking switching back and forth between these.