So I had a complete physical done, including blood work, and I'm waiting for it to come back, but I'm starting to wonder if maybe I should somehow push for a CAT scan or an MRI...i mean with something in the mind that shifts like this, it seems like it would be logical to check for an organic cause like a brain tumor (although this could just be my twisted logic). I've been obsessed with the fact that I have a disease recently, because I feel really bad, really disconnected from myself and the world, and I'm weak, like I havent' eaten in a long time, even when I have; shaky and muscles are a little twitchy. My eyes can't seem to focus as quickly as usual...i'll look up at something and thne back down and the image seems to shake a little before i can see it. And I'm tired, alwyas tired, i sleep ten hours, i feel like i've slept two. I'm so depressed now...I'm sure I have some disease and something terrible is going to happen to me and the way i'm feeling like this is because I'm going to die soon and i'm getting ready for it in someway. I feel sad around my parents because I can't connect. I dunno, i feel really badly tonight. Sorry for the rambling post just a few thoughts tonight.