Discontinuing anti-depressants..

I've been of Effexor now for about three Months, before that I was on Citalopram for about two years. I've decided to try and beat my ilness with out the aid of Anti-Depressants. Has anyone else come of these horrid drugs and manged to stay Anti-Depressant free? Im really struggling at the moment. My main problem being that I feel different everyday. The world somehow seems to be a different place. I feel as if I've been on vacation and come back. Everything feels strange to me and Im struggling to remember the last few years since I've been on them. Although I am able to keep calm it is freaking me out. Im always in a dream like state. Any advice would be appreciated. Cheers!