[rusty2324]

Does anyone ever obsess on the disconnected feeling? Like, I was having an amazing two weeks feel like I came back from the dead then I graduated college and a lot of stress hit me. Disconnected feeling slowly crept up on me now I constantly am focusing on it which has led me back to an episode of depression and I literally don’t want to do anything. Obsessing on this disconnected feeling makes me feel so programmed and then the cycle of what are thoughts? What are feelings? All those intrusive questions start to flow. I begin to self sabotage. I’ll start feeling better and be like you know what I’ll feel good again, then my mind will be like, well what is “good” and are you sure you will be good again if everything is just auto pilot and pre determined? Vicious cycle.

 

[rusty2324]

And it becomes extremely hard for me to enjoy moments or want to go out and do things because I’ll be like “well what if you don’t know what to say or think in that moment and can’t have fun” or “what if you just have anxiety and can’t enjoy the moment” it’s so annoying.

 

[Katieaw21]

Yeah I get this too. I'll be better for a few days or even just a day and one tiny thing will set off the anxiety or bad self esteem then suddenly I'm back where I started and feel hopeless again. It's hard to get out of that cycle and once you start thinking about it it's hard to stop again. I guess it's good to still do those things you want to do and try not to worry about it (tho that's easier said that done)

 

[Johqnnq]

Im too like this now.
I feel like when something hits which is so negative then it build and build. And i dont regocnise anymore what is happening and i start to lose control and again im hopeless and just confused. It is like i become blind of whats happening. I only feel the pain.