First of all, I'm sure you won't get schizophrenia. I'm not an expert but you don't sound like it, just anxious and terrified. You're afraid of losing your mind, but I think the problem is the fear which you keep feeding, not the teenytiny chance that you'd suddenly go insane. I'm sure if you'd went to a psychiatrist they'd tell you are not going to be a schizophrenic. And if you didn't believe them, that's a whole other issue. But not schizophrenia. And I think if there wasn't schizophrenia to worry about, it would be something else.Chris said: