I have been visiting this sight for over three years now. I have always felt that somehow I was different from all of you. That my symptoms were not really dp/dr, anxiety. I have always thought that there was something medically wrong with me and none of the doctors I have seen can figure it out. I will try to explain some of the weird things I feel.
1. I feel turned around at times, like things are in the wrong direction. If I am driving north it suddenly feels like I am going south. Really strange. It makes me feel very disoriented. I pulled my daughters drawer out the other day to organize it. I put it on my bed which was facing in the opposite directon of the dresser and began to reorganize it. Well, I kept feeling really odd and turned around. It made me feel really off and anxious. It was as if my brain could not comprehend that the drawer was facing in a different direction.
2. My brain feels as if it is not working properly. I will be about to go somewhere like the store and I will visualize it in my brain but it is NOT the store in my neighborhood. I will instead flash on a store near the house I grew up in.............in another state!! It make me feel very confused when this happens.
3. Today I was playing cards with my son and I had a weird reaction. I would be feeling fine and then I would glance down to the pile of cards and I would have a weird reaction. I would look at let's say the Ace and this weird feeling would rush through my body. It was like a hair trigger reaction. I would look at a card and have a bad association to it... so to speak. I don't really know how to explain it. But it was werid and it felt bad and it felt wrong!!!!!!
4. I will be driving down the street and it will look so much like a street in the neighborhood I grew up in. This is a very disorienting, and confusing A real creepy feeling.
5. Sometimes I feel as if I am about to forget how to talk, or forget everything I ever knew.
6. There have been times when I see something on tv and for a minute I will feel like I am in that place and not in my house. It is a powerful wave of disorientation.
Some of the other things I feel seem to be more like derealization or anxiety.
Most mornings I feel nervous, uncomfortable basically generalized anxiety. When I drive everything looks off, wrong, familiar but unfamiliar. When I walk my daughter into school my legs feel weak, I feel a little off balance, and my vision feels off....over stimulated.
I have also had some overwhelming feelings of who am I, and where am I!!!!!!! My husband and kids look wrong
All of this has taken a huge toll on me. But I can't seem to get it out of my mind that I must have a medical condition causing this.
Maybe my brain is just fried from anxiety, oversensitized to every little bit of stimuli.
Sorry for the long post.
What do you guys think???
xo
Sassy :?
