[Guest]

I have been visiting this sight for over three years now. I have always felt that somehow I was different from all of you. That my symptoms were not really dp/dr, anxiety. I have always thought that there was something medically wrong with me and none of the doctors I have seen can figure it out. I will try to explain some of the weird things I feel.

1. I feel turned around at times, like things are in the wrong direction. If I am driving north it suddenly feels like I am going south. Really strange. It makes me feel very disoriented. I pulled my daughters drawer out the other day to organize it. I put it on my bed which was facing in the opposite directon of the dresser and began to reorganize it. Well, I kept feeling really odd and turned around. It made me feel really off and anxious. It was as if my brain could not comprehend that the drawer was facing in a different direction.

2. My brain feels as if it is not working properly. I will be about to go somewhere like the store and I will visualize it in my brain but it is NOT the store in my neighborhood. I will instead flash on a store near the house I grew up in.............in another state!! It make me feel very confused when this happens.

3. Today I was playing cards with my son and I had a weird reaction. I would be feeling fine and then I would glance down to the pile of cards and I would have a weird reaction. I would look at let's say the Ace and this weird feeling would rush through my body. It was like a hair trigger reaction. I would look at a card and have a bad association to it... so to speak. I don't really know how to explain it. But it was werid and it felt bad and it felt wrong!!!!!!

4. I will be driving down the street and it will look so much like a street in the neighborhood I grew up in. This is a very disorienting, and confusing A real creepy feeling.

5. Sometimes I feel as if I am about to forget how to talk, or forget everything I ever knew.

6. There have been times when I see something on tv and for a minute I will feel like I am in that place and not in my house. It is a powerful wave of disorientation.

Some of the other things I feel seem to be more like derealization or anxiety.

Most mornings I feel nervous, uncomfortable basically generalized anxiety. When I drive everything looks off, wrong, familiar but unfamiliar. When I walk my daughter into school my legs feel weak, I feel a little off balance, and my vision feels off....over stimulated.

I have also had some overwhelming feelings of who am I, and where am I!!!!!!! My husband and kids look wrong

All of this has taken a huge toll on me. But I can't seem to get it out of my mind that I must have a medical condition causing this.

Maybe my brain is just fried from anxiety, oversensitized to every little bit of stimuli.

Sorry for the long post.
What do you guys think???

xo
Sassy :?

 

[rainboteers]

I can relate to a lot of the things you wrote and if it makes you feel any better I have had cat scans, 4 MRI's, and an MRV (they never found anything wrong). It sounds like the anxiety dp/dr to me, but you need to do the right things medically. If you are really worried go to the dr. and rule out the medical possibilities.

 

[Da'Burgh]

I don't want to get too far into this because I'm not one for the uber-long paragraph posts, but this sounds like DP/DR to me. I feel like my DP/DR is teeter-tottering on the edge of a cliff and it's a weird feeling. It's mostly weird feelings and thoughts left. Not so much the strong fogginess I once had.

 

[ShyTiger]

hey sassy i relate to all of your points. I dont get them all the time and some more than others but i have experienced them all as a part of my anxiety and dp. I get it where i forget which way familiar doors open and which way to turn taps and also where my house tends to flip around in my brain so i think the bathroom sould really be where the lounge is ect. The one that disturbs me the most is driving in a suburb far from home and suddenly my brain tells me this is an intersection at my home area and i become very disorientated and then panic. The way i cope with this is to keep telling myself i am in such and such suberb, it may look like my suberb but its not. i keep repeating and trying to relax. I also keep in mind i have a melways(directory) so i cant get lost and if the worst happens and i get so disorientated i dont think i could get home i have a person i can ring that is happy for me to use them and they will either talk me home or come get me. Iv never had to use that option thou as it ususally doesnt last long now. Hope that helps some.

 

[Guest]

Thanks for the replies. It makes me feel about 100 times better knowing I am not the only one feeling these odd feelings. It is hard to pin point exactly how I feel but I know it is not normal and it does not make me feel relaxed or have peace of mind. Instead I keep wondering why I don't feel right. Why do I feel funny when I do something as simple as walking into Old Navy? I feel nervous, off balance, short of breath etc... Those are actually more traditional anxiety symptoms.

Some of the other stuff just feels so weird and scary. Maybe it all comes from a overtired mind that almost never stops checking in and wondering what the hell is wrong!!! It seems so odd to me to have to suffer with this EVERYDAY. Why is it always lingering? Why are most days such a struggle? Why don't I feel 100 percent? Enough already. It feels as if my brain is misfiring or as if it is not quite working properly. Perceptual distortions is the best way to describe it.

I guess I shoud stop complaining, I know there are people who suffer much more then I do. That being said, I still want to recover from this.

Wishing you all the best,

Sassy [/b]

 

[Monkeydust]

I'm about 99% sure that those problems don't indicate anything physically "wrong" with you.

So on the assumption that it's psychological, I'd go with what others have said so far, and add that much of it sounds like OCD-type thoughts; the visualization of where you grew up and so on. Having these symptoms, however, doesn't mean that you have OCD as a disorder - I've had them at times, on and off.

 

[moonDust]

I can relate to EVERYTHING you wrote especially no. 1 (with south and north direction), for the last weeks i was sure i have DR, but i couldn't connect this disorientation to it. now i feel much better.

Also, events and places from the past ALWAYS keep popping up in my head, and familiar places looks like they way i used to see them when i was a child. i think someone already mentioned it on the forum, he called it "Perception of reality always keep changing". and i think he recovered however (-:

another strange things you mentioned that i can so relate to is, when i hear on the radio or watching TV about Elections in London (for an instance) i feel in some way like i'm really there, like i'm "british" for few minutes. like i feel the enviromental "touch" of London... so strange.