Destroy Everything In Two Weeks

Things are so horrible. I feel like my mind is free-floating through this freakshow. I quit my job and blew off all my midterms. I can't concentrate on anything or anybody and I can't think. I try to read but it's like I'm trying to translate Chinese. I drank for the first time in 4 months and once I was drunk it was like my voice was coming from another source, all the while a tiny part of me was screaming out to just shut up and be 'myself' - or silent, apathetic and distant. I can't stand being around new people. I can't stand all of the petty bullshit that arouses the interest of people around me. I don't know how I do it all but I know I'll just keep doing it.