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Destroy Everything In Two Weeks

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Things are so horrible. I feel like my mind is free-floating through this freakshow. I quit my job and blew off all my midterms. I can't concentrate on anything or anybody and I can't think. I try to read but it's like I'm trying to translate Chinese. I drank for the first time in 4 months and once I was drunk it was like my voice was coming from another source, all the while a tiny part of me was screaming out to just shut up and be 'myself' - or silent, apathetic and distant. I can't stand being around new people. I can't stand all of the petty bullshit that arouses the interest of people around me. I don't know how I do it all but I know I'll just keep doing it.
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Could this destruction possibly be a good thing though? I always sometimes wonder if big changes like that aren't necessarily a good things for some people, some time.

Are you in high school or college? And what was this job you were at? Did you like it? And what, in God's name, were you drinking?

Sometimes these things happen and we think we regret them afterwards but they end up being the best thing for us.

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