[fingertingle]

Things are so horrible. I feel like my mind is free-floating through this freakshow. I quit my job and blew off all my midterms. I can't concentrate on anything or anybody and I can't think. I try to read but it's like I'm trying to translate Chinese. I drank for the first time in 4 months and once I was drunk it was like my voice was coming from another source, all the while a tiny part of me was screaming out to just shut up and be 'myself' - or silent, apathetic and distant. I can't stand being around new people. I can't stand all of the petty bullshit that arouses the interest of people around me. I don't know how I do it all but I know I'll just keep doing it.

 

[sebastian]

Could this destruction possibly be a good thing though? I always sometimes wonder if big changes like that aren't necessarily a good things for some people, some time.

Are you in high school or college? And what was this job you were at? Did you like it? And what, in God's name, were you drinking?

Sometimes these things happen and we think we regret them afterwards but they end up being the best thing for us.

s.

 

[fingertingle]

Could this destruction possibly be a good thing though? I always sometimes wonder if big changes like that aren't necessarily a good things for some people, some time.

Are you in high school or college? And what was this job you were at? Did you like it? And what, in God's name, were you drinking?

Sometimes these things happen and we think we regret them afterwards but they end up being the best thing for us.

s.

College. I really like learning. I just feel more or less mentally retarded now.

I worked at Rite Aid. I don't know where you're from, it's a drugstore. I hated it, but it made me feel a little less guilty that my parents pay for everything as I was able to buy my own food and stuff.

And, the answer to your last question... rum. I made it sound hallucinogenic, but I really just wanted to express somehow how detached drinking makes me feel.

 

[Guest_]

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[Mollusk]

Well put poonany. I have been letting these irrational thoughts rule my mind. Once you let them in and feed them by focusing on them, then they tend to stay. You are right, crazy thoughts don't deseve to consume every waking moment and dwelling and complaining won't accomplish a thing. I'm going to get some crap done before the college library i'm in closes.

 

[bright23]

I'm sure you'll look back at quitting Rite Aid as a great thing to do for yourself. You will not regret it.

 

[Guest]

I know this is really hard to accept, but you cant give yourself up to irrationalism. Saying your mouth felt like someone elses' may be true, but its false and you know it, so screw that thought and continue. I have the same sort of symptoms but i try not to let something like that, that is so farce, deserve every waking moment of my life. It isnt going to get you anywhere. Dwelling wont fix it. Complaining wont fix it. You just have to take things as they come, roll with them, try dieting, exercising, art, something that allows you to open up from the DP/Routine life that is encasing the YOU.

I know i dont really have the 'right' so to speak, to tell you what to do, because i do have the same problems. But you cant live your life hyperfocusing on one symptom to the next. Its silly*, but being Bob saget is silly*.

Poonanny, thats is quite possible the best piece of advice ive ever read about DP and its effects. *applauds loudly*

 

[agentcooper]

but at the same time, poonanny, this is a support group and sometimes people just need to have a place to complain. i can definately agree with many of your points but some people don't have anywhere but this web site to talk about their dp/dr symptoms, and how these symptoms affect their lives.

 

[Guest]

agentcooper, do you know of any outside groups then? because i dont. Well meaning friends and family just get freaked out by my DP explanations, this place is a godsend.

 

[agentcooper]

i don't know of any support groups in the "outside" that are specifically designed for dp/dr sufferers...i think it is just too rare of a disorder...we are few and far between, my friend. but i'm very lucky in that my friends and family are very supportive. true that they don't totally understand what i'm talking about, but they try really hard to be sympathetic.

 

[fingertingle]

I'm sure you'll look back at quitting Rite Aid as a great thing to do for yourself. You will not regret it.

Funny story? -- this was my second time working there. :?
But I guess you're right, I'm glad to be gone and hopefully I will stay that way this time.

 

[Guest_]

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[Guest]

Daaamn Tingle so sorry to hear that you going throught that shit again..!!!#!#,i gave You alot of credit for Your stubbornes and will to fight that crap.You'll get throught it again in no time.Any reasons why did it start at this particular time?? lots of stress ? I agree with bright quitting Rite aid was probably a good thing to do..You can do better than that
Keep Your chin up girl its gonna be alright!

 

[fingertingle]

Daaamn Tingle so sorry to hear that you going throught that silly* again..!!!#!#,i gave You alot of credit for Your stubbornes and will to fight that crap.You'll get throught it again in no time.Any reasons why did it start at this particular time?? lots of stress ? I agree with bright quitting Rite aid was probably a good thing to do..You can do better than that
Keep Your chin up girl its gonna be alright!

Heh. I think you're thinking of someone else, because I definitely have seen no recovery.