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Hi. I was put on lamictal for Lyme disease last year because I had slight DP from the disease but nothing too crazy I was functioning fine going to class and shit. Then in November I started having SEVERE dissociative episodes related to that poison medicine. My doctor had me cold turkey it in January and since then I’ve had SEVERE DP/DR to the point where I am Seriously considering ending my life soon. I have lost my sense of identity from this drug withdrawal and I feel like I almost have split personality ??? I feel like someone else is in my head with me and I’m floating behind myself while I walk. I’m obsessed with my existence and and hyper aware of everything around me and my body. I have tons of other symptoms from the withdrawal but I don’t care about them cuz they aren’t nearly as bad as this. Please someone help me. I feel like I have multiple personalities. My memories from before this seem like another person entirely and I’ve convinced myself that “withdrawal me” is different than the “real me” if that makes sense. I never had any of this shit before in my life I had very slight DP looking back now I wish I could just go back to how my life was before I ever took the stupid drug. My life is over. I’m so traumatized by this and I feel like my body isn’t even my body anymore. I have thoughts that I need a new body after going through this cuz there’s no way this is the same body I’ve always had. Idk if any of this makes sense. I’m not me someone else has taken over my body I have no identity my life is hell. I’m going to end it soon if this doesn’t get better. How can I ever move on from something like this. Please someone help me. I basically live in my head and I’m sick of it and my body doesn’t feel like mine I don’t want to live
 
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