Desperate poem

I get panicked
I get panicked
I become panicked
I'm panicked
I smile
I'm panicking
I'm shaking
I'm breaking
I'm lightheaded-
God, am I fainting?
God?
GOD?!
they told me to talk to you but why am I on hold?
tell me why are we waiting
to die-
why has my stay in this place been so-
unpleasant...
there were things I had to live but why wasn't I present?
why can't I remember-
and how come now Im an adolescent?!
Where did my time go?
yesterday seems like so much time ago
Days go slow-
then turn fast-
TOO FAST..
MAKE UP YOUR MIND LET ME REST
I NEED HELP I'VE SENT COUNTLESS REQUESTS
Why was I ever dispossessed of myself
Why do I seem so different from me-