[enigma]

I get caught up in personal nostalgia a lot.

I tend to really miss times past.

But I theorize that if they feel a lot safer to me--it's only because they were long ago (hence the troubles then can't mess with me now).

In other words, it's all an illusion.

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[Monkeydust]

I often long to "turn the clock back", and I dwell on this an awful lot.

I can't help but wonder at how different my life might have turned out had all this stuff not happened to me.

That's one of the major reasons why I'm so suicidal recently, I guess. There is no way to turn back time, I feel like I've lost so much and that it's "too late" for me now.

I wasn't thinking this way a week ago, but due to my new medical problems I've been at home all week with time to think.

 

[person3]

I was nostalgic for a long time, still am at times. but there were things wrong back then that i don't acknowledge in my nostalgia.

Nostalgia, unless in extreme moderation, can be a dangerous thing IMO. You can't go back, and you mess yourself up when you keep trying to do so.

 

[CECIL]

That's one of the major reasons why I'm so suicidal recently, I guess. There is no way to turn back time, I feel like I've lost so much and that it's "too late" for me now.

Bingo!

 

[= n]

Yes, ive definitely felt this- that everything felt more real/warm/bright/alive in the past. But i dont want to dwell on that at the moment because i feel like the answer is obvious to me.

To live, and live well. Having just spent a month backpacking around eastern europe the thing i am looking back on is what happened last week or three weeks ago. Those things feel more alive and real to me now, because it was amazing and i had a lot of fun and this disorder didnt ruin it at all.

So i can tell you that it doesnt have to be that way (ie looking back into the distant past for comfort and joy- for me it was childhood) and you can still have amazing experiences (hopefully this is obvious).

 

[person3]

you sure can!

damn right on that one.