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Hi,

I have not been to this sight for awhile but wanted to check in. I am still having a hard time believing that what I experience is really derealization. I thought I might list some of my symptoms and see if anyone can relate or if anyone has any input.

Driving: Driving is difficult. The road looks funny, cars appear to look "different". I feel turned around, lost, feel as if I am in another place that I was in five years ago. My head feels tingly. I feel woozy, a little off balance. Sometimes it feels as if I have an ice cream headache. Sometimes The street I am on looks SOOOO much like the one I grew up on that I can't shake the feeling. It all happens very quickly in many different variations.

Brain freeze: Sometimes my brain freezes and things look so weird. For example I could be driving past a store and it feels all wrong, like does not belong there. Or I can't figure it out, it is wrong, different. I will feel really confused. Somehow I can not connect to it. Sometimes I look out the window when I am home and the view looks so odd. It makes me feel confused and my stomach does sommersaults.

Phone conversations: I will be talking to a friend in another state and she will describe a restaurant or a place she went and I will suddenly feel as if I am there. Huge mind fu#k.

I will get a weird sudden who am I where am I scary sensation.

Those are the ones I can think of for now. Basically I get weird waves of brain blips where it feels as if my brain is not functioning properly.
Any ideas?? Is this dp/dr????

Thanks :eek: Wishing you all a peaceful day.

Sassy
 

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Sassy,

These sensations are all too familiar to me. I think that you might have DR. DR is mostly related to your surroundings while DP is mostly realted to yourself. When I was at the height of my DR, familiar places looked alien and unfamiliar. My parents seemed alien to me as well. As if I never knew them.

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Thanks Andy! Soooo.......... do you have any suggestions on what to do or say to yorself during these times??? I usually feel like I am about to loose my mind when these odd sensations hit me.

Thanks!!!!

Sassy
 

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Sassy,

When such sensations arise, you have to tell yourself that they are only sensations and that you really are ok deep inside. Positive self talk is one of things you should do. I know these sensations can be scary as hell, but you have to train your mind to not listen to them and to just brush them away. Do you have this disorder on a chronic level? How long have you had it?
 
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Thanks Andy,

Very good advice. I have been trying to train my mind, it works a little bit but then I go into "oh my God what is wrong with me, there must be something physically wrong that the doctors cannot find". I have never been in full acceptance that what I feel is anxiety dp/dR.

I just flew to Los Angeles and had many, many tests done with some really great doctors. MRI and EEG all clear, however I found out through a saliva test that my hormones are a little wacked out and a few other minor things. I have been put on a tone of supplements and some chinese herbs to support my adrenals, liver, and basically balance out my system. I really appreciated the input of the internist I saw. He was the first doctor who really listened and did not try and give me a prescription for an ssri. He has an amazing reputation in that city for being "the guy" "the brilliant one" the one who can solve the cases that other doctors have no idea what to do with.

Anyway I have been dealing with this disorder for five years. Chronic, I guess so. How about you? Are you better now?

Thanks for listening!

Sassy :?
 

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Hi Sassy.Dp/dr must be an interesting experience in hawaii!Firstly,I no longer suffer dp/dr.Instead,I notice it.We make ourselves suffer it.I waited 10 long years to loose my sanity,and guess what, I never did.It was a very strange and bizzare watch and a total waste of time.

Driving shouldnt be much of a problem.If your eyesight is good,you have a sence of perspective and distances and your coordination is ok you should be able to drive irrespective of dp/dr.
I dont get the vivid bilocation thing you talked about when on the phone.you must have gr8 imagination.Maybee you should write scripts or do something artistic.
The surreality of buildings is delayed shock;unexpressed emotions comming back unexpectedly and out of context.Dont mind this,its common for us all.
Remember; experience dp/dr.Notice it and watch it.Dont suffer it!
 

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Aloha Sassy, I think you definetly have dr and dp. You sound like dr causes you the most problems though. For me dp is probably more horrible than dr but I usually think of them as being the same illness because to me they are the same illness.

I have just bought a plane ticket to Oahu Sassy and I hope one day I can meet you because I have never met someone with this illness. I decided to move back to Hawaii because although I will probably be homeless when I get there I know that my dp/dr is not as bad in Hawaii. I have decided to not fear leaveing my family and being all alone for the rest of my life. The important thing is that I live my life and don't let dp/dr stop me from doing what I want to do. My family thinks I am nutts for wanting to move away but I don't care what they think anymore. I have to face down my dp/dr or else I am going to be dead one day and never amouted to anything because I let dp/dr get the best of me. I think the most important thing any of us can do is to face our dp/dr and fight it off with all our might.

Sassy check your PM.
 
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Thanks for the replys. The derealization does seem to come and go with no specific pattern. I just keep hoping that it goes one day.........for good. I am trying to stay positive and ignore the symptoms as much as possible. Many people have recovered and I pray that all of us here do as well!!! :)

Sassy
 
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You are right, hoping it will go away will not make it go away. However, I need to be and stay hopeful. I have tried everything else except medication. So perhaps one day my prayers will be answered and I will feel normal again!!!! I hope the same for all of you suffering with this crap!!!

Sassy 8)
 

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yeah you def need to activley do things to make dr get better but a very powerful tool is hope, when I am in a positive mind set nothing beats it, it allows me to do things that I NEED TO DO. and in theory I think it is the essence and the first step to healing.
 
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