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Mister ignorant sponge man here with another question. I see where a few here on this board speak of dr as primary with dp, and some have only dr.

I started with both, but both about equal. I had the dp feelings of deadened emotion, inability to express myself, problems knowing what i beleived in, not feeling intact with the people I was with, aliented from those I loved, wondering whose hands I had, wondering who was in the passenger seat beside me etc. Bt I never had the "flat" look you folks speak of, or macro or micro.

Phil jsut mentioned in another thread that ocd caused his dr and that dr casues his dp. I find that I am never dp'd inless I am dr'rd. My main problem now is dr, and when it gets bad I will get dp'd, sometimes as bad as I used to but rarely does it get that intense. I too was very pure obessional at onset od dp/dr.

The question is, what is this relationship between dp and dr, and can one casue the other and can one
exist separately without the other. Are they the same beast but only different manifestations? I describe dr as light and sound sensitivity, grainy air, foggy vision, room seems not jsut right, spaciness and zombie like feelings, fatigue, foggy mind, hard to concentrate...oh wait...I seem to be getting dp'd as I write this.

Anway, thanks
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for me dr is like acid visuals, not as much moving but colours and plastic/melting if you know what i mean. dp is a total brain fuck, in a way i've gone into a trip (the tripping i used to love where the universe is huge and you're standing on the earth with it; crystal clear vision and a totally spiritual experience) but it's the flip side; it's lost and huge, totally aware of it, total fear and no escape, mind and self blown but crystal clear, all consuming awareness and no escape. believing, unbearable second by unbearable second, that even if i top myself i'm going to stay in this lonely hell for ever.

i have had both together and also apart but my most extreme dr has been accompanied by dp. i hate dr but at least it doesn't destroy me like dp does. this is only my experience; i've never had constant dr
also dp for me isn't deadened emotion(i wish it was) emotion, including fear and loss of myself are heightened
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