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My derealization was pretty strong the past few days but when I woke up this morning it was completely gone. If I'm being honest, I'm pretty bummed about it. I was pretty numb and I didn't fear anything. The brain fog was like a buffer for any negative feelings or emotions. Now that it's gone, all the stress from my job is back and I don't even know how to be a normal person again. I know it seems weird, but I desperately want to get the "nothing is real/nothing matters" feeling back. What do I do?
 

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My derealization was pretty strong the past few days but when I woke up this morning it was completely gone. If I'm being honest, I'm pretty bummed about it. I was pretty numb and I didn't fear anything. The brain fog was like a buffer for any negative feelings or emotions. Now that it's gone, all the stress from my job is back and I don't even know how to be a normal person again. I know it seems weird, but I desperately want to get the "nothing is real/nothing matters" feeling back. What do I do?
Are you freaking kidding me? Are you a troll? Seriously! Who would want this hell back? Do you know how much me and others here are suffering from this crap? This has to be a freaking joke! You want it back!! Take mine!! Take the whole damn thing. Have at it!
 

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Are you freaking kidding me? Are you a troll? Seriously! Who would want this hell back? Do you know how much me and others here are suffering from this crap? This has to be a freaking joke! You want it back!! Take mine!! Take the whole damn thing. Have at it!
No, I'm not a troll. I know DPDR is different for everybody, and I'm really sorry if I offended you. But ever since my derealization has "drawn back" so to speak, I've been sitting here, wallowing in my anxiety and depression. It came back at me full force, and now I can't eat or sleep or relax and I feel like I want to throw up. So I don't take back what I said. I miss my derealization because even though I was like a walking zombie, I could at least function somewhat. Now my brain is full of racing, suicidal thoughts and I want nothing more than to turn it off.
 

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No, I'm not a troll. I know DPDR is different for everybody, and I'm really sorry if I offended you. But ever since my derealization has "drawn back" so to speak, I've been sitting here, wallowing in my anxiety and depression. It came back at me full force, and now I can't eat or sleep or relax and I feel like I want to throw up. So I don't take back what I said. I miss my derealization because even though I was like a walking zombie, I could at least function somewhat. Now my brain is full of racing, suicidal thoughts and I want nothing more than to turn it off.
Maybe it's time for you to find an antidepressant that would work for you. I know it's tricky to find the right one but we can't continue to live like this. This is not living.
 

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hey guys my dp/dr is completely gone for a year now and ive been suffering from this for 2 years before..it only returns when i consume specific drugs and doses most people call moderate...so i can always reenter the state of dp/dr at everytime i want..since i enjoy dp/dr after its only recurring when im tripping, i trip a lot and almost everyday...i smoke weed, smoke cigs , snort speed, here and there i have a drink and even plan to take the risk'' with lsd...my life has become really fun almost every- all day im walking in the sun while being high on some skunk...so i no longer understand how the gift of dp/dr could be the biggest regret..its something i really enjoy after i learned how to use that..

dont think so bad about the dissociated state of awareness..its your friend in the end
 

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hey guys my dp/dr is completely gone for a year now and ive been suffering from this for 2 years before..it only returns when i consume specific drugs and doses most people call moderate...so i can always reenter the state of dp/dr at everytime i want..since i enjoy dp/dr after its only recurring when im tripping, i trip a lot and almost everyday...i smoke weed, smoke cigs , snort speed, here and there i have a drink and even plan to take the risk'' with lsd...my life has become really fun almost every- all day im walking in the sun while being high on some skunk...so i no longer understand how the gift of dp/dr could be the biggest regret..its something i really enjoy after i learned how to use that..

dont think so bad about the dissociated state of awareness..its your friend in the end
Welcome to the world of addiction!

Please dont encourage people to take illicit drugs to make themselves feel better...

Please politely f**k off to www.imafuckinstonerwasteofspace.com

God bless the internet....Even total numbskulls get to have a say...
 

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hey guys my dp/dr is completely gone for a year now and ive been suffering from this for 2 years before..it only returns when i consume specific drugs and doses most people call moderate...so i can always reenter the state of dp/dr at everytime i want..since i enjoy dp/dr after its only recurring when im tripping, i trip a lot and almost everyday...i smoke weed, smoke cigs , snort speed, here and there i have a drink and even plan to take the risk'' with lsd...my life has become really fun almost every- all day im walking in the sun while being high on some skunk...so i no longer understand how the gift of dp/dr could be the biggest regret..its something i really enjoy after i learned how to use that..

dont think so bad about the dissociated state of awareness..its your friend in the end
You're on thin ice
 

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Welcome to the world of addiction!

Please dont encourage people to take illicit drugs to make themselves feel better...

Please politely f**k off to www.imafuckinstonerwasteofspace.com

God bless the internet....Even total numbskulls get to have a say...
first of all...im not addicted to any of these so called drugs''..since i never build a tolerance..i always take the same dose and always have the same effects and intensity..i can do them and i do them for fun..but i dont have to do them..

second...youre confusing something here man..i never encouraged people to do the same i did..what the fuck..why do people always react like you did when they read something they dont like, they act like you did something bad and you are a bad and stupid person..my only point was to tell people that dp/dr is not as bad and it doesnt necessarily mean you cant trip anymore..and also that when you understood how to work with instead against your dp/dr, you can enjoy tripping again and it doesnt affect you dp/dr anymore..at least thats what ive learned over time..

whats your problem man you dont have to be respectless..as frustrated as you are about your situation, this is no excuse for being rude!
 

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Good one eddy
I think that reply must be a troll or some joke
People on here are struggering and hes dumbing it down
Go away
no i didnt belittle any serious condition i had pretty severe dp/dr, i have suffered seriously for myself and have been suicidal at many points..but the difference between me and most people is that i have learned how to use dp/dr and i no longer get fucked up..for sure this is something most people dont understand when theyre frustrated with themselves..but what i said is no joke..of course you dont wanna hear a success story of someone else if youre still at square one and dont seem to progress..you know what..thats the reason why the cured people hardly ever come back to tell people that theyve beaten dp/dr..this is why there are only a few success stories out there and its demotivating...
 

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Yeah, but it's not really good advice is it, Disruption.

You might be able to keep taking recreational drugs, but you said yourself that for "most people" it wont do anything but exacerbate their symptoms.

I get what your saying about just living your life, and that's fine, each to their own, I'm not judging, unfortunately I still smoke cigarettes but I know it's avoidance behaviour and that I'll be much better off if I quit.

But many people here have issues with dp/dr from drug use, particularly weed, which has that very effect, so to suggest casual drug use is irresponsible.
 

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Ummm
The point here was that taking any type of drugs on top of having dr dp is that stupid.
Yes the people on here are down and pissed off from dealing with this so sorry if people are upset by your reply.
Don't get me wrong its great you no longer suffer dp dr thats wonderful.
I still think its insane that you still get high on drugs after you have had dp dr , why would you risk it again like WOW !
And the remark its No wonder cured people don't come back , your reply isnt really a recovery story all you raved on about wss you still get high and your cool with it all? What does this even mean ?
Anyway I'm not on here to argue with people , im on here for support and to support.
If your well again thats great and i wish you well in the future
 

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Dissoction is my friend in the end yes during the trauma!
Not chroinc non stop for no apparent reason !
What do you mean by you know how to use dp dr ?
Please tell
 

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Not addicted????????/

" i trip a lot and almost everyday...i smoke weed, smoke cigs , snort speed, here and there i have a drink and even plan to take the risk'' with lsd...my life has become really fun almost every- all day im walking in the sun while being high on some skunk.. "

Drop all these drugs and see what happens to ya within a very short space of time....

What you believe is that your usage is under control.....That doesnt mean your not addicted....In fact every addict claims there use is under control...

By the way most of the drugs on your list are not only illegal but im wondering do you drive a car or work whilst under the influence....If you do i pray to god you dont do yourself or someone else a serious injury whilst you are high....God forbid you kill somebody whilst driving high or because of making a stupid mistake in your workplace or at home even....

I wonder could you live with yourself if you killed a young child whilst driving under the influence...

Take a visit to the emergency room on a Saturday night at around 3am and you will see the true damage illicit drugs do to people...
 

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Lol i would rather have panic attacks everyday over this. Maybe thats just me
 

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Yeah, but it's not really good advice is it, Disruption.

You might be able to keep taking recreational drugs, but you said yourself that for "most people" it wont do anything but exacerbate their symptoms.

I get what your saying about just living your life, and that's fine, each to their own, I'm not judging, unfortunately I still smoke cigarettes but I know it's avoidance behaviour and that I'll be much better off if I quit.

But many people here have issues with dp/dr from drug use, particularly weed, which has that very effect, so to suggest casual drug use is irresponsible.
no its not a really good advice because its no advice at all..i didnt say something like ''go out and use drugs as me''..the point was to tell people it is possible to enjoy drugs on dp/dr and if you dont enjoy them but took them once its nothing irreversible...yeah cigarettes are the only drug i use dayly but i will quit all drugs this week just to trip on life again because im a little bored of being constantly high on something and i dont even know how life feels without drugs anymoreXD..so im not even a friend of addiction...yeah i know weed can be a strong trigger for dp/dr and it was the worst trigger for me when i had dp/dr permanently...my dp/dr was initially triggered 3 years ago from 8g of shrooms and a shitload of weed dust in a big ass bowl while peaking...these were the most painful following 5 hours of hell of my life and till this day i cant even imagine anything worse than that feeling i had while tripping and the following year after, i even had a plan how i would kill myself even though i was never the person who even thinks about suicide before...so i know all the pain people deal and dealt with...i thought id spend the rest of my life in mental institutions...i suffered a lot and did never even think of taking any drug again when i was at my worst..not even alcohol...but...here i am..being the proof that everything is possible
 

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Ummm
The point here was that taking any type of drugs on top of having dr dp is that stupid.
Yes the people on here are down and pissed off from dealing with this so sorry if people are upset by your reply.
Don't get me wrong its great you no longer suffer dp dr thats wonderful.
I still think its insane that you still get high on drugs after you have had dp dr , why would you risk it again like WOW !
And the remark its No wonder cured people don't come back , your reply isnt really a recovery story all you raved on about wss you still get high and your cool with it all? What does this even mean ?
Anyway I'm not on here to argue with people , im on here for support and to support.
If your well again thats great and i wish you well in the future
i respect your opinion and the fact that you dont reply like an asshole...i didnt want to upset anybody i just wanted to give some hope and tell people something that i wouldnt have believed its possible myself 2 years before...no i dont see it as a risk man i just know that it wont come this far again..because i learned how to use drugs'' responsibly and not in overdoses or something like that...dont get me wrong im not always on drugs..just a few month and then i take a break..now its 5 month ago since my last break and i will quit every drug this week as already mentioned...im looking forward to be clean again :)...thats a great thing...

yeah of course its no recovery story but being able to enjoy highs again is a big indicator for being cured from dp/dr...and the reason why im so gratefull for being able to enjoy drugs again is because i dont know what my life is worth without them..there is nothing but drugs in my life until i die..its the sad truth...and 5 month ago my girlfriend left me and that was the initial reason why i started taking so many differnt drugs again..because at this point i saw no reason for life anymore..i guess this is normal...

thanks..i hope you'll be fine
 

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Dissoction is my friend in the end yes during the trauma!
Not chroinc non stop for no apparent reason !
What do you mean by you know how to use dp dr ?
Please tell
i mean i can control it because i gained control over it over time..but i cant put into words how to do it..its something you have to do for your own and it requires a lot of courage..because you have to change the way you think..i guess a special thanks goes to kratom too..because it moved my thinking pattern into the right direction..but i managed to transform my mind...again...i dont say ''do what i did''..but i say, its possible to use dp/dr or let it work for you when you need it...
 

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Not addicted????????/

" i trip a lot and almost everyday...i smoke weed, smoke cigs , snort speed, here and there i have a drink and even plan to take the risk'' with lsd...my life has become really fun almost every- all day im walking in the sun while being high on some skunk.. "

Drop all these drugs and see what happens to ya within a very short space of time....

What you believe is that your usage is under control.....That doesnt mean your not addicted....In fact every addict claims there use is under control...

By the way most of the drugs on your list are not only illegal but im wondering do you drive a car or work whilst under the influence....If you do i pray to god you dont do yourself or someone else a serious injury whilst you are high....God forbid you kill somebody whilst driving high or because of making a stupid mistake in your workplace or at home even....

I wonder could you live with yourself if you killed a young child whilst driving under the influence...

Take a visit to the emergency room on a Saturday night at around 3am and you will see the true damage illicit drugs do to people...
no not addicted...

man if i would use all these drugs'' at once would be irresponsible and stupid but i was already on all of them at the same time so its not really a problem...

i will prove it for myself again that i dont need these drugs'' because this week i will stop using all at once because im a little bored of being high all the time and im looking forward to being clean for a while :)

no im jobless and i dont have a drivers license because i lost it 8 years ago when i didnt even had dp/dr and was just smoking weed very rarely..,i would never want to hurt anybody...if i die its not a bad thing but killing someone else is unforgivable...

i know i dont tell people to take drugs but for my life its the best thing i can do because thats the only reason to live..i have no one out there..without drugs'' i would be suicidal or already dead
 
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