Two apologies here. One to Robbie for sort of sidelining his thread. And one to Homeskooled for putting my blinders on and not being more accepting of good information. I realize that you have been helped a great deal by Amen and respect him and I know of your bent toward that school of thought. You seem to really know your stuff (are you in grad school?) and it was not my intention to diss you or Amen or anybody trying desperately to help folks like us.
When I wrote that short post to Rula I had jsut reviewed my dp journey by reading my old notes and journals, the med records I have, my bills paid out and then took a gander at my overflowing self help and textbook library. What a long road it has been. Tried everthing possible at the time when I was very active in this search. I mean I started this thing out with thorazine if you can beleive it. I found the bible of Dilantin (remember that push years ago?) amongst copies of books espousing all the remedies in the world and I tried half of them.
I say I am gun shy becasue I am still here suffering after all the attempts. But when it comes to anticonvulsants I get real nervous becasue i have been around epileptics my whole life My roommate in college was one, as well as my best friend after college. I jsut remember what their meds did to them, albeit they were heavily dosed. The last shrink I went to two years ago saw my list from day one to present (antipsychotics,minor tranquilizers, TCAs, most ssri's,benzoes, busperal, mega vitamin therapy etc) and then said well, lets try another, so came the celexa. Four months later it was an atypical antipsychotic which killed me. Then came the thread that broke my back, for he said lets go into the anticonvulsants. And that is when I quit him.
And that is why my post seemed negative, and I am sorry for that. I am open minded to anything. I just may have an ignorant fear of anticonvulants and doing drugs in general in a "crap shoot" fashion. Pharmacology today really is in a stage that Dr. McCoy on Star Trek called "barbaric", using drugs whose workings are not fully understood and are prescribed for uses other than manufacturers initial targets. If tle people are right, then anticonvulsants are right but then you get the arguements against that school and one like me doubts. I am not smart enough to get into this, so I will shut up. I jsut don't have it in me anymore to go where no man has gone before, thats all.
Keep up the good work, becasue it is indeed good work. I truly respect yours and others efforts.
jft
That is the problem. I don't know, I don't want to feel physically sick on top of that! That is why I thought of Neurontin.
