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I have suffered with Derealization for 40 years. My first episode was after I had smoked pot. I had smoked it before so I don’t know what was different that time. That’s the thing though. It came from out of NOWHERE. For years I thought I had a panic disorder. That’s not it. I don’t have the panic attack until I dissociate. I was always anxious after that. Then seven years later, OUT OF THE BLUE it happened again. Literally, I was standing in the greeting card section at a store reading different cards. I couldn’t shake the feeling. That was in May of that year and I became severely depressed the whole summer. What was so scary is there was no warning. That meant it could happen anytime! The next time was 11 years later. I’ve have a few in the past 20 years as well. I often feel the Derealization, that scary floaty feeling but these incidents were different because it was like a sucker punch. I was happy, going about my life, then BAM I’m suddenly in a fog and nothing is real. My main trigger is being a passenger in a car. I hate it. I know how to calm myself down with different grounding exercises but I don’t want it to happen at all! I live in fear of the sucker punch. I never know when it will happen. Through the years, just when I think I’ve outgrown it, there it comes again. Does anyone have any advice? Is there a way you’ve overcome the fear, even if you haven’t stopped the “attacks?”
 

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Hi there, i am very sorry to hear about your experience with derealization, seems like you've had a real tough time.
Hold your head up high, the most perplexing thing about anxiety, for me personally, is it can create the most absurd somatic symptoms - which in turn, can really make you scratch your head going 'can this really just be anxiety?' This can possiblty result in an even greater escelation of anxiety, and subsequently, an even worse range of symptoms.
I don't have any particular suggestions but would just like to mention that you should be careful when you meantion that you've had derealization for 40 years.
Some people have had chronic derealization for 40 years, and they feel awful because of it. You have had derealization on and off for 40 years, so there is a big difference. I am not saying that you haven't suffered, just know that some members might feel a bit put off when you formulate it like that. I have had CHRONIC dp/dr for 6 years until only recently, where i still have chronic dp/dr but due to a cocktail of medications, have been able to reduce my symptoms and hope to have a full remission in the near future.
 
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