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I have suffered with Derealization for 40 years. My first episode was after I had smoked pot. I had smoked it before so I don’t know what was different that time. That’s the thing though. It came from out of NOWHERE. For years I thought I had a panic disorder. That’s not it. I don’t have the panic attack until I dissociate. I was always anxious after that. Then seven years later, OUT OF THE BLUE it happened again. Literally, I was standing in the greeting card section at a store reading different cards. I couldn’t shake the feeling. That was in May of that year and I became severely depressed the whole summer. What was so scary is there was no warning. That meant it could happen anytime! The next time was 11 years later. I’ve have a few in the past 20 years as well. I often feel the Derealization, that scary floaty feeling but these incidents were different because it was like a sucker punch. I was happy, going about my life, then BAM I’m suddenly in a fog and nothing is real. My main trigger is being a passenger in a car. I hate it. I know how to calm myself down with different grounding exercises but I don’t want it to happen at all! I live in fear of the sucker punch. I never know when it will happen. Through the years, just when I think I’ve outgrown it, there it comes again. Does anyone have any advice? Is there a way you’ve overcome the fear, even if you haven’t stopped the “attacks?”
