Depressed

DR gets me so depressed. This feeling makes me feel like everything is pointless. Nothing is normal or right. I hate this. I'm mainly just venting. The cause of my DR episodes seems to be anxiety from DR, then the DR comes, then panic, then more DR, and it's just a cycle. If I could get rid of that anxiety, maybe it would go away. And almost everytime I have a DR episode, it's because I'm thinking about it. :x