I do need to get medically cleared but my doctors don’t believe me because I have anxiety on my record they put it’s down to that , so they won’t refer me to a neurologist so I can’t know , they don’t realise how serious wha Tim going threw is I say the same things over and over again about my symptoms I can’t stop like a tic , I don’t feel In control of me saying it like literally not at all like I’m not even here , I can’t remember anything about myself or memories , I feeel as if I’m acting really weird or doing things and saying I wouldn’t normally say as I have to force my self to speak even tho there’s no thoughts there so it comes out weird looks things that wouldn’t make sense , I can’t leave my house as I can’t plan or know what to do at all nothing feels real and it feels like I just no control or what I do or say or we’re I go it’s completely gone , and I wake up every night not knowing we’re I am like I know physically like I can say it we’re I am but I can’t be there 100% sure in my brain , and last night I swear I had TIA (mini stroke) as I couldn’t move and my one eye went completely blurry and couldn’t see out of it for 5 minuets then went away , I’m not like majority of the Poeople on here so I don’t generally believe it’s brain damage or dementia and my life’s of over I just have no control whatsoever and just watching myself losing my mind and watching everyone around me get frustrated and angry because they expect me to snap out of it but I can’t and expect me to speak about anything ilelae but it’s like I physically havnt got the Brian process to do it anymore like to know who I am what I like doing , what’s the right thing to do , and do normal things they normal people do I’m completely dissoocnented form everything . Just seems completely different from the last time I I had depersonalization I still had thoughts just didn’t feel like me this time I have nothing , had flu and severe stress and smoked a strong spliff and I think I’ve just broke my Brian completely