Depersonalization as an enlightenment

Hello all,

As a DP Suffer I have a specific question. Do you consider DP as a enlightenment or a sa positive thing?
Indeed illness or symptoms shows something is working with us and give us a signal that we need to do some change ?

So maybe I need to do bigg change in our life ? Change work ? It is because I have no find my purpose or I do not live on the present or analyse too much myself ? Like DP is to show to face fear and reality or signal I am on the wrong way ?

Or it is just to stop analyze too much and live fully my own life and DO THINGS I LOVE ? Its look like signals when I was policeman I lost my personality my "ego" (so depersonalization) and this job was not for me so symptoms come..

But why I have still have tit ? Did I have no found my own love. Maybe love and accept myself with positive outlook and do things I love ?

Its look like it is a crisis conscious. I have found a interesting comment on your tube:

"DP results from a premature (immature) awakening to an experience of self that "we" aren't prepared for, whether by trauma, drugs, alcohol, stress etc. It's easy to dismiss talk of enlightenment as airy fairy bullshit when "we" are sunk into the depths of despair at the meaningless of life in the throes of DP. Each are like noon and midnight, occupying the same position on the clock, though signifying opposite times of the day. One light, the other dark; during one period we are awake and the other we are asleep. DP isn't cured, but rather endured and seen through. It is the "Dark Night of the Soul" as described by John of the Cross, hundreds of years ago, in his book of the same name. The more we struggle against the quicksand, the more it sucks us down: what is resisted will persist. It's difficult to accept this as a necessary part of our growth, but here it is, nonetheless, even though we were not ready for it. You will come through with greater humility and wisdom, no small things. Your ability to appreciate life itself will be amplified. There is light at the end of the tunnel. The sun always rises."

Thanks all and sorry for my bad English