Does anybody get this where they feel a bit anxious and think it would be easier to be a robot or android memory on a machine rather than feel anxiety? Like immortality would be cool but it would also stop anxiety feelings too?
Growing up I had anxiety that would make me miss school, even back in 6th grade I missed 2 months because of anxiety. That was before DP/DR. I've actually gotten over a lot of my anxiety some years ago. At my worst points I was just numb to it all. It's a blessing and a curse to feel. Which maybe is why some say this is protective mechanism, if anxiety becomes too strong then we default to dissociation.
I see how it could seem preferable to be a robot if you can only feel negatives, like horrible anxiety, but then any good would be lost too, of course. I always notice how my DPRD only lets through bad emotion (anxiety etc), despite its putative protective purpose. I manage that skewed state because on the other side of it will be positive emotion too. I.e. I am withstanding DPRD etc. to regain a proper spectrum of experience, even while not feeling good on that journey.
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