This hit me during an extremely stressful time and I was on overload. I payed no attention and this is where is got me. So, yes I think it can be your body and mind saying STOP. It stopped me dead in my tracks for sure.
Even though I think the world of depersonalization is a world of it's own I can honestly say it is not a pleasant one either. It is a very painful world to be in, if it is the brain's way of taking a time out I do not know which could be worse. When you wiegh it out the reality that may be painful can be as painful as the depersonalization. It is then you say where lies the answer?
The grass looks greener on the other side. Alot of people would love hearing about dp, they'd say we're lucky for an 'escape'. We know its not an easy place here.
I wonder about self preservation? Like evolutionally, instead of being traumatized (stress/anxiety/extreme anxiet caused by drugs) and us don't something like suicide or running away, it puts us here. Our lives may be unfullfilling but dp doesn't hamper us spreading precious DNA does it?
Now....to extend that metaphor a bit: imagine that you say "oh, damn! Our car is broken!" and your little toddler overhears you and knows you are very upset and feels bad for you and wishes she could help.
In trying to help (but only being a rather pathetic three-year old) she gets her trusty container of glue and walks out to the driveway. She climbs way up on Daddy's car and slowly and carefully starts squirting the white sticky awful Elmers paste down into the cracks on the hood. IN a matter of minutes, the entire engine is covered in glue. It hardens. It ain't pretty.
Off to the side, while Mommy and Daddy scream "WHAT THE FUK HAPPENED TO THE DAMN CAR NOW?!" the little toddler smiles to herself thinking "I did good. I 'fixed' Daddy's broken car..."
That's the Unconscious.
Well-meaning and very very stupid, lol...alot like a toddler with a ladder. Dangerous. Very dangerous. But not at all evil. Just "primitive" in its tools and in its thinking. To the Unconscious it makes SENSE to say "well, if he is having so much trouble being him right now, maybe if he felt like he WASN"T him anymore..." and the rest is dp history.
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