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I just wanted to share something on the forum. I have started a new therapy and had my 13 th session on Wednesday.
Although the guy is not a speciliast on DP / DR I have found out two new things regarding the cause of my symptons,
1) As I child I often had the feeling that I was left alone, helpless, defenseless which has led to a lot of traumatic experiences
=> This has resulted in a constant monitoring of my outer world to potential threats, may it be walking down the street, situations at work, during socialising etc.
As I have not learned as child to cope with these situations, my only way to cope as an adult is by escaping into a DP/DR state
2) I never had parents which ensured me in my feelings and accepted me the way I am. They never gave me the feeling that despite what I did I am o.k. and they would
still love me when I have done something "bad" or "wrong"
=> This has resulted into a very fragile emotional state as an adult. Same as above in cases where I feel threatened or not liked by people I shatter in pieces which causes
again DP/DR
It is the first time in years that DP/DR makes a clearer sense to me instead of only looking at my symptons which are more or less described by other sufferes. The guy has given my DP/DR a "face" and some hope that by working on these issues I will have the chance to finally recover completely.
The theory of believing in my emotions, resulting into a clearer person which is able to deal with the real world again, leads to total recovery seems logical to me.
Furthermore I feel understood in these sessions which leads to a decrease in my symptons, due this fact I come back to life again and feel more present in the real world.
The fact that I am focussing more or less 60 % on myself and all my Attention is directed inwards and not on the outer world causes my cut off Feelings and spaced out feeling makes perfectly sense.
Before I had DP I never focussed on how I would see things, I focussed on the content of what I see. Doing Attention Training to Redirect my Attention maybe quite helpful.
Although the guy is not a speciliast on DP / DR I have found out two new things regarding the cause of my symptons,
1) As I child I often had the feeling that I was left alone, helpless, defenseless which has led to a lot of traumatic experiences
=> This has resulted in a constant monitoring of my outer world to potential threats, may it be walking down the street, situations at work, during socialising etc.
As I have not learned as child to cope with these situations, my only way to cope as an adult is by escaping into a DP/DR state
2) I never had parents which ensured me in my feelings and accepted me the way I am. They never gave me the feeling that despite what I did I am o.k. and they would
still love me when I have done something "bad" or "wrong"
=> This has resulted into a very fragile emotional state as an adult. Same as above in cases where I feel threatened or not liked by people I shatter in pieces which causes
again DP/DR
It is the first time in years that DP/DR makes a clearer sense to me instead of only looking at my symptons which are more or less described by other sufferes. The guy has given my DP/DR a "face" and some hope that by working on these issues I will have the chance to finally recover completely.
The theory of believing in my emotions, resulting into a clearer person which is able to deal with the real world again, leads to total recovery seems logical to me.
Furthermore I feel understood in these sessions which leads to a decrease in my symptons, due this fact I come back to life again and feel more present in the real world.
The fact that I am focussing more or less 60 % on myself and all my Attention is directed inwards and not on the outer world causes my cut off Feelings and spaced out feeling makes perfectly sense.
Before I had DP I never focussed on how I would see things, I focussed on the content of what I see. Doing Attention Training to Redirect my Attention maybe quite helpful.