[Kittymoo]

Hi, I'm Kitty.

My diagnosis is complex PTSD but my symptoms are mostly dissociative, though I do have certain hyperarousal ones as well. My experience is very similar to the depersonalisation one and my therapist seems to think that I have this form of dissociation.

I feel like a blank, not like a real person. It feels like I have no personality any more. I don't recognise a self. I have also lost my emotions almost entirely, but I still have completely normal affect as far as facial expressions are concerned.

I've lost my body signals like hunger and thirst too. My memory and concentration have deteriorated. It's rather like a living death. I'm just a shell going through the motions.

I developed these symptoms after experiencing sexual violence a few times in my 30s, but my therapist believes there are roots in childhood trauma as well, and I tend to agree.

I'd love to know if anyone has successfully treated any of these symptoms, and, if so, how.

 

[Aridity]

You seem like a great candidate for MDMA therapy, have you looked in to that? It's something that I am looking in too myself as well.

 

[Kittymoo]

You seem like a great candidate for MDMA therapy, have you looked in to that? It's something that I am looking in too myself as well.

I'd love to try MDMA therapy but so far haven't managed to get into a study, and it's not available in Australia outside of trials.

 

[Aridity]

I'd love to try MDMA therapy but so far haven't managed to get into a study, and it's not available in Australia outside of trials.

You can't get it illegally? It won't be that hard to find a dealer won't it... or is it different in Australia. I live in The Netherlands, that shit is pretty much made here haha.

 

[Kittymoo]

You can't get it illegally? It won't be that hard to find a dealer won't it... or is it different in Australia. I live in The Netherlands, that shit is pretty much made here haha.

I wouldn't know where to find it. I don't think it's such a common drug here any more.

 

[Aridity]

I think if you're in this horrendous state, and you have nothing to lose. I would try if you can manage to get some. Just ask around, I know a lot of exctacy is getting exported to Australia.. or try the dark web? You can do MDMA solo, or with an underground therapist. You need to release a lot of stuck trauma from your body.

 

[Kittymoo]

I think if you're in this horrendous state, and you have nothing to lose. I would try if you can manage to get some. Just ask around, I know a lot of exctacy is getting exported to Australia.. or try the dark web? You can do MDMA solo, or with an underground therapist. You need to release a lot of stuck trauma from your body.

I've written to a couple of people again about getting into a trial, so we'll see if that goes anywhere. I'd rather not have to use the dark web tbh. That's potentially a big risk to take.

 

[Aridity]

I've written to a couple of people again about getting into a trial, so we'll see if that goes anywhere. I'd rather not have to use the dark web tbh. That's potentially a big risk to take.

A risk legally wise? Or quality? quality is pretty good if you have a good vendor. But I understand. Stay strong! Psilocybin could be an option as well.. if that's easier to get your hands on.

 

[Kittymoo]

A risk legally wise? Or quality? quality is pretty good if you have a good vendor. But I understand. Stay strong! Psilocybin could be an option as well.. if that's easier to get your hands on.

Legally it's a big risk to take, especially for anything imported.

There are two potential studies coming up that I know of. I hope I can get into one of those.

 

[leminaseri]

A risk legally wise? Or quality? quality is pretty good if you have a good vendor. But I understand. Stay strong! Psilocybin could be an option as well.. if that's easier to get your hands on.

bro dont get me wrong why do you advice people drugs?

 

[Aridity]

bro dont get me wrong why do you advice people drugs?

Because something like MDMA especially after all the studies that has been done and is still ongoing. It looks to be a great treatment for PTSD/CPTSD, and perhaps also dp/dr. End of 2023 it will be a legal treatment, you are not aware of that? We can't really call it drugs anymore it's not different than an any other pharmaceutical.. they're all drugs.

 

[leminaseri]

Because something like MDMA especially after all the studies that has been done and is still ongoing. It looks to be a great treatment for PTSD/CPTSD, and perhaps also dp/dr. End of 2023 it will be a legal treatment, you are not aware of that? We can't really call it drugs anymore it's not different than an any other pharmaceutical.. they're all drugs.

i know minimum 2 people who got schizophrenia due to mdma.

 

[Aridity]

i know minimum 2 people who got schizophrenia due to mdma.

lol.... Oke so? I know 4 people who died from paracetamol.

 

[leminaseri]

lol.... Oke so? I know 4 people who died from paracetamol.

nevermind dude you dont want to get it

 

[Kittymoo]

i know minimum 2 people who got schizophrenia due to mdma.

I've used MDMA recreationally when I was younger. I tolerate it well. I'm not worried about a bad reaction. Also, the dose is carefully controlled when it's used therapeutically, as is the environment.

 

[Aridity]

I've used MDMA recreationally when I was younger. I tolerate it well. I'm not worried about a bad reaction. Also, the dose is carefully controlled when it's used therapeutically, as is the environment.

Exactly,set and setting are very important. And the quality and dosage is controlled in a random rave in the woods from a shady dealer without a scale, and combined with alcohol and other drugs and lack of sleep. Yes then definitely it can have adverse effects. Also there are supplements to prevent most of the neurotoxicity from MDMA. In all of the studies no one had long lasting adverse effects.

 

[Trith]

lol.... Oke so? I know 4 people who died from paracetamol.

Seriously? Or do you imagine you could have known four people who died from paracetamol? It's very different.
If you did, how did it happen? Was it with the normal prescribed dosage?

 

[Aridity]

Seriously? Or do you imagine you could have known four people who died from paracetamol? It's very different.
If you did, how did it happen? Was it with the normal prescribed dosage?

Of course not, I just gave a dumb answer back.. 2 people getting schizophrenia from mdma is so anecdotal bro.

 

[leminaseri]

Of course not, I just gave a dumb answer back.. 2 people getting schizophrenia from mdma is so anecdotal bro.

do you think i lie? and even if, it is still a very dumb thing to advice people on the internet drugs especially if it is mdma. you dont know the person at all.

 

[Kittymoo]

Suggesting people do MDMA therapy where everything is properly controlled isn't the same as telling them to go and score street drugs.