I can relate. Don't know what to do about it. I've just tried my best to make my fantasies a reality (they aren't like superhero fantasies, they are things that could become reality), but when/if they don't I just get horribly suicidally depressed. I also cannot understand how "normal" people live their lives. I really do not and cannot understand the appeal. Don't know if there's anything we can do about that. For me, since it's not the largest impediment to my functioning right now, I'm putting this issue on the back burner. At least, that's how I'm coping with it for now.