Cultivating endurance

Beyond the horrible confusion of the mind and our disconnection, deidentification and terrible tearing from the fabric of our own beings is... within our flesh... or the inner glory of life within our flesh is a spiritual struggle.

I have been cultivating my endurance my entire life, at least on a mental level. Either from the pressures of outside influence or my own efforts in reaction to a hostile environment.

Today, my depersonalisation, confusion and existential terror was extreme in comparison to the normal levels. Yet, I still went out for a walk.

There is no shame in not being able to do something. Feats seem impressing when mentioned without the context of the effort it took to get there. Thus for all those still bound to the home for very rational reasons, do not dismay. If you press forward there is only one direction, upward.

No matter our outward circumstances and pressures, and the evils of this world. We must understand and appreciate this is a battle of endurance, not one of immediate will or victory over the enemy of oppressive trauma or mental disease.

So long as you keep breathing and keep striving, you have already won. It's simply a matter of acting out the victory which is rightly yours.