[whiterabbit]

Have just had a crying fit - frustration and despair and loss - frustration with the feeling of disconnection and complete inability to think creatively or with focus about anything and the monologue that goes with this state which is taking me apart; despair at being like this; loss at this being my life and what it has done to others. I don't understand how I can cry like this and also not feel emotionally connected to anything or anyone.....? I feel androidal most of the time and not with it - empty of anything. Can anyone help me with this?

 

[terri*]

Hi Whiterabbit,

I am so sad you are in the throes of fighting off this disorder from hell. You have managed to rise above it to a great degree before and I know it will happen again for you. Restart your inner monologue.

I think you make an excellent point about having so many emotions toward this disorder but none towards life. It is, as you know, because that is what you are obsessing on now. Look outward.

I have faith in your courage and strength, Whiterabbit.

Most sincerely,
terri

 

[bat]

hi whiterabbit

i think that crying is a good sign, physically and mentally. i hope things start getting better for you now.