Oh totally. Crying is like the best thing. I notice that if I don't cry then I become a walking timebomb. It really sucks. Have you guys noticed how your dp/dr is after you cry? Do you notice any changes?
I voted never, cuz it was the nearest case. Actually I use to cry, but very seldom - usually when I'm intoxicated with alcohol, and some painful childhood memories come to my mind. But it happens very rarely, only two-three times a year. Also when I plan my scifi comic story and put my soul into some character's feelings, I may shed a tear sometimes - but I think that doesn't count, as it is more acting than feeling my true inner emotions.
I usually don't cry anymore but everyone in a while i shed a few tears, like earlier tonight matter of fact. About a month back or so i kind of cried when i thought about my grandmother who passed away.
I COULDN'T cry when I got hit with this huge bout of dp/dr. I think being in such an anxious state and full of panic just kept me from it. When I did cry, which was very rare, it was a HUGE release and I would feel like my feet would touch the ground if only for a few moments.
Why wasn't that an option. I'm so depressed and depersonalized, that I basically can't cry. Anybody else have this? I wish I could cry! Sometimes, when I'm in a happy mood, which is rare, I cry. But, mostly, I'm flat, numb, and miserable.
Goethe wrote: "Nur wer die Sehnsucht kennt, wei?, was ich leide!" which could be translated as "Only he who knows true longing knows what suffering is all about" I would beg to differ: "He who has lost a true sense of longing knows what suffering is all about!!!" Yes crying, longing for the real world, longing for a moment of reality to stay, so much so that the tears well up, that's when I reconnect. "Flow my tears..."
I can cry at sad movies etc but I found that my anxiety froze my ability to cry over my own feelings. This sucks as I find that after crying I feel the anxiety and stress dissolve. It makes me feel safe and grounded. Thinking becomes far more positive and I feel settled and secure.
I cry probably every other day (so I voted for the 'every day' option cause that was closest). And the crying is because of my frustrations...because I feel like I've gotten nowhere with my almost constant efforts to improve my health over the last 10 years...I feel like I have no way to relieve my frustrations...not even a hard run will do it for me. So, when I cry sometimes my body shakes and my teeth chatter because the frustration is so great.
Oh how nice it would be to get a hug from a fellow dp'er. :wink: I really want to meet you guys, to see that you really do 'exist'. Heck, I'd probably burst into tears if I met one of you.
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