Well any psychological stressors are always helping making the dpdr worse. I guess your decision should be more of a balanced one. Maybe you can let him smoke, but not around your children and make him smoke so he blows it out the window and no into the house. I feel for you, it must be tough to have children at this age (I'll be 21 in 2 months). Plus having this condition is no picnic. If you really love him, maybe you shouldn't boot him. It's really not fault of yours being he is a security blanket, because you need people to be with/share love together. It's a tough decision but it looks like you might need him for help and admitting you need help isn't a weakness, in fact admitting you need help is what's getting me back on track in life, just admitting in my heart and soul that I'm imperfect (no matter of how compulsive I get). I find that if I remain humble around people it's so much easier to go throught the day and get along... anyway don't wannt make this post about ME, lol.
Could this be the problem?
Last may when I began having these issues it was when me and BF were supposed to be splitting! I love him dearly and have two children and want nothing more than to marry him! He however finds pot to be more inportanat so he is leaving because I dont want it in my house.
Well during the time I was pregnant we were working things out but I still never really knew where I stood. After I had my son I thought everything was fine until I found out he was stealing from my daughter. Then we began talking about pot and splitting. and I feel like my DR episodes have gotten some worse lately though I still am not sure what brings them on some days!
Well I was reading a post on here between someone and Janine. Janine was talking about this state being caused by us hinding from things ... or something along that line. Well I have a ver very deep seeded fear of being alone in some ways but more than anything being without Adam(bf)!! I really really dont wanna loose him! I hate to think about it! Everyday I hope he will change his mind! In a lot of ways he is also a security blanket! When I have a DR episode it is comforting to know he is there or he will be latter! He will always be there! Now that is all changing! He is leaving and I am having a hard time coping with that alone but also the fact that my security blanket is leaving!
I also have a BPD mother and a huge deep seeded fear I will turn into her! A fear I will physically or emotionally hurt my children! I fear hurting them since she hurt me so much!
Should I try to accept and let go of the fear and concerns. Stop worrying about my security blanket being gone and stopy being terrified I will be my m,other, stop worrying I will harm my children? Would that help?
If so ... i am not really sure how to do two of those! I know how to try and let go of Adam, though it is hard. But my fear of being BPD is horrible as is the fear of harming my children because I may be like her one day. I am not really sure to over come that? Any thought?
(oh and by the way I have been a bit of a posting nut since I just found this site so thanks for listening and helping me!!!
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Well during the time I was pregnant we were working things out but I still never really knew where I stood. After I had my son I thought everything was fine until I found out he was stealing from my daughter. Then we began talking about pot and splitting. and I feel like my DR episodes have gotten some worse lately though I still am not sure what brings them on some days!
Well I was reading a post on here between someone and Janine. Janine was talking about this state being caused by us hinding from things ... or something along that line. Well I have a ver very deep seeded fear of being alone in some ways but more than anything being without Adam(bf)!! I really really dont wanna loose him! I hate to think about it! Everyday I hope he will change his mind! In a lot of ways he is also a security blanket! When I have a DR episode it is comforting to know he is there or he will be latter! He will always be there! Now that is all changing! He is leaving and I am having a hard time coping with that alone but also the fact that my security blanket is leaving!
I also have a BPD mother and a huge deep seeded fear I will turn into her! A fear I will physically or emotionally hurt my children! I fear hurting them since she hurt me so much!
Should I try to accept and let go of the fear and concerns. Stop worrying about my security blanket being gone and stopy being terrified I will be my m,other, stop worrying I will harm my children? Would that help?
If so ... i am not really sure how to do two of those! I know how to try and let go of Adam, though it is hard. But my fear of being BPD is horrible as is the fear of harming my children because I may be like her one day. I am not really sure to over come that? Any thought?
(oh and by the way I have been a bit of a posting nut since I just found this site so thanks for listening and helping me!!!
)
