Contemplating suicide

I have both dp and anhedonia. I guess both are connected. SSRI use (which I took for social anxiety) is what triggered them. I'm extremely devastated. I thought by going back on an SSRI, they'd resolve. Instead, It made them much worse. Wellbutrin did not do shit. I feel my life ended here. I was a successful motivated person but now I'm very dysfunctional. Dp is affecting my abiliy to drive. I'm ashamed of myself. What I'm gonna say if my relatives ask why I'm not driving? I swear if I don't find a med for this, I will kill myself.