I often think about suicide, but i'm aware what this desicion would mean for my relatives... I couldn't do that to them... so I feel like I'm sacrificing myself for my relatives just for them not to experience rhe horrible after effects if i did one day take that decision. I'm not familiar with anhedonia, only with dp, but that alone is bad enough. Hang in there man! I am currently talking to my physician and trying diferent medications. In your case I would put more efford in talking to your phycisian and when you do have an agreement about medication, make sure that the medication also works for depression... please do so..... because the depression is the one that triggers suicidal thoughts.