Constantly in Static

Hello Everyone.

I am 19 years old and have had depersonalization and derealization for as long as I can remember. I can't truly remember a time when I haven't been stuck in this fog. I am currently in college but completely lost in life.

I assume that the reason that I have DP is because of neglect and emotional and mental abuse in childhood. I am becoming less and less hopeful with everything because it just seems like I am always going to be stuck. I am being treated by a psychiatrist but I am the first person with DP he has ever treated. I was on a medication that was supposed to help but it really didn't seem like it was helping so I went off of it.

I am excited to be able to talk with people who actually understand what it is like to depersonalize because I am so tired of trying to explain something that I feel like I really can't explain.

Thanks for letting me post.