[M A R S]

Do some of you do this? I feel like I'm watching my every move, my own vice freaks me out. I feel like I'm watching my self and at the same time critiquing my every move. When i talk to my wife on the phone i feel like its not real or i hear my voice and freak out that I'm just talking. The past few days have been so much worse for me.

 

[Kelson12]

Yep...I do the exact same thing. I work as a Recruiter and everytime I am talking on the phone, I have the "feeling" that my voice isn't mine or that my voice doesn't feel connected or that I can't believe I am talking, etc...etc...I also find myself looking at my body and being like, "Is this me??" "Am I connected to this body??" "I don't feel attached to this!!"

But, and I know Janine will say the same thing, this is the essence of why the DP is so bad. The self monitoring. It makes it so much worse. The more we "watch" ourselves, the more we feed the DP monster and the worse it gets.

I understand this, but my thing is....How can we ignore something that is so entirely disturbing???????? I mean, it's almost like telling someone that if you ignore a headache it will go away. Or "Don't think about the headache, it will only make it worse." When you have something in your life that is so extremely bothersome, it's hard not to think about it. It really, really is. I understand what Janine says....but I just don't know how to ignore it! I just don't!!!!

But, whenever I someday find out how to not think about it....I will be the happiest man alive. Trust me.

 

[M A R S]

I walk in to my house or my wifes office and i feel like I'm going leap out of my skin..

IS ALL OF THIS JUST ANXIETY? This is not me going crazy? or me just about to lose all touch with reality?

 

[Sojourner]

If you refuse to stop monitoring yourself, the least you can do is learn how to identify your symptoms! :lol:

Seriously, only YOU can identify what you are feeling.

Perhaps you can see your therapist more than once a week?