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I can’t for the fuckin life of me stop repeating music and song lyrics in my head. My mind is either completely blank, pre determining things to say to people/fake conversations and this repetitive music. All with zero emotions. Anybody feels this way
 

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Felt that way all my life, my friend. Wish I had answers that weren't just temporary fixes.
fuck this bullshit. I pray my insurance decides to cover TMS I think it's pretty likely they will. I hope it fuckin works
 

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It's worth a shot. Figured that's the next thing I would try, though it's hard for me to get out and go anywhere these days. As it is my attempts at treatment are limited to whatever I can order from Amazon.
 

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It's worth a shot. Figured that's the next thing I would try, though it's hard for me to get out and go anywhere these days. As it is my attempts at treatment are limited to whatever I can order from Amazon.
I always feel terrible when I hear people say they can't get out of their homes. But honestly I have no fucking clue how I do what I do with this illness. Someone with extremely similar symptoms to me benefited from it so maybe just maybe I'll get a fuckin miracle. Where are you from btw bro
 

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I always feel terrible when I hear people say they can't get out of their homes. But honestly I have no fucking clue how I do what I do with this illness. Someone with extremely similar symptoms to me benefited from it so maybe just maybe I'll get a fuckin miracle. Where are you from btw bro
Let's take this to a private conversation so that we can leave this thread open for others who might be able to provide helpful information.
 

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Hi Jack11,

I've also been experiencing exactly what you've described for many years now.

This year I decided to try medications, but I haven't tried any in the past.

I am hopeful I will find some improvement with medicine.

- Abe89
 

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I've had music repeat in my head, and have rehearsed conversations, since I was a child. Lots of people probably do. Maybe it's an OCD thing? I remember when I got DP, though, the once-normal thoughts became very amplified and disturbing. I was also agoraphobic. Agoraphobia is fear of leaving the house, not inability to leave the house. I assume that's what you guys were talking about. It sucks to have these problems, but at least it's somewhat common.
I wouldn't say I'm agoraphobic, at least according to a psychiatric definition of the condition. I just get very confused and forget where I am and what I'm doing (I don't drive at all anymore, waaaay too dangerous to do so). So there's really not much point in me leaving the house unless I absolutely have to do something. It's painful and humiliating.
 

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Yep started in april. Music all the time, couldn't shut it off. I would focus on music rather than what I was doing then sometimes drift off and make shit up, like a having a conversation with someone. Usually I would nip that shit in the bud I would bring myself back by focusing on reality, but in October I let go and let myself dissociate. I was tired really tired of fighting and people were saying let go and shit but I guess I misinterpreted it and after that its like I disconnected completely, now music is constant, but it doesn't bother me like it did however I can't really think or focus, my vision is clear yet I can't connect with anything. My thoughts don't sound like im thinking but rather like I'm dissociating or taking to myself.
 

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This was my first symptom, I tried to sleep and all I could hear was music, the next day I was on the bus and it felt like I was dreaming. Then I spiralled out of control trying to find an answer.
 

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Ah, I'm sorry. That sounds pretty terrible. I experience that too, or at least I did in the beginning. I remember leaving things in stores that I shouldn't have even set down. I lost my wallet several times, and my phone once. When it comes to driving, I hear you. I avoid driving unless I'm quite certain i'm up to it, so as of now I'm not employed.

How long have you had DP?
Yeah, it's pretty brutal. I'm just completely gone. Because I live in the states i am forced to go to "work" in order to have low premiums for my health insurance, and every time i have to go it terrifies me to no end. I get lost, confused, can't focus at all or remember anything, and the drive to the office is terrifying as hell (my mother drives me).

I don't know how long I've had DP to be honest, the way people are describing it here, it sounds like I may have always had it, or at least since I was very young. But I got really horrible terrifyingly crippling symptoms in 2004, that include much much more than DP/DR. Still have no clue what caused it, whether it was physical or psychological (though the latter seems extremely unlikely to me). So I've been dealing with absolute horror for almost 15 years now.
 

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I can't for the fuckin life of me stop repeating music and song lyrics in my head. My mind is either completely blank, pre determining things to say to people/fake conversations and this repetitive music. All with zero emotions. Anybody feels this way
i say thats normal, i use to do that all the time, i still kinda do, like when i wake up ill have a song in my head, i even did this when i was normal without this bullshit dp, its normal man, if u have a song in ur head rock out lel, no over think it man, and if u hate it, idk force urself to think of something else? talk to people, maybe thatll help
 

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i say thats normal, i use to do that all the time, i still kinda do, like when i wake up ill have a song in my head, i even did this when i was normal without this bullshit dp, its normal man, if u have a song in ur head rock out lel, no over think it man, and if u hate it, idk force urself to think of something else? talk to people, maybe thatll help
I highly doubt this is normal. If it were normal, the world would fall apart because nobody would ever be able to get any actual shit done.
 

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I highly doubt this is normal. If it were normal, the world would fall apart because nobody would ever be able to get any actual shit done.
maybe ive misunderstood this guy, but since i can remember.. i mean not everday but sometimes i have songs stuck in my head, or throughout the day when im just chilling in my mind by myself i have fake conversations all the time lmao, no 1 else has this? and i kinda predetermined sometimes what to say, just cus now i feel like never saying anything so i have to like predetermine on what to say.. but yeah, ive had music stuck in my head, had fake conversations in my head since i could remember, it must be a different thing hes talking about, unless ive just been messed up like this forever and just never knew lmao, what goes on in ur guys mind?
 

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maybe ive misunderstood this guy, but since i can remember.. i mean not everday but sometimes i have songs stuck in my head, or throughout the day when im just chilling in my mind by myself i have fake conversations all the time lmao, no 1 else has this? and i kinda predetermined sometimes what to say, just cus now i feel like never saying anything so i have to like predetermine on what to say.. but yeah, ive had music stuck in my head, had fake conversations in my head since i could remember, it must be a different thing hes talking about, unless ive just been messed up like this forever and just never knew lmao, what goes on in ur guys mind?
and the completely blank, yeah that sucks.. i had that, just gotta keep moving and put that thought behind, ur thought process will come back, just keep on living
 

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Yeah man I was the same exact way when my dp was at its worst. When I first got it, and I would either be replaying conversations or thinking of things I could of said differently and playing out a whole new conversation in my head that didn't happen lol. Or I was plagued with music nonstop and it was one or the other almost constantly. But this can change for you, it has for me. I hope it gets easier for you
 

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If you find a song or piece of music going round and round inside your head obsessively try actually listening to the song or piece of music..........It can break the pattern of repetitiveness.........Kinda like lifting the needle on an old vinyl record thats scratched and lifting it forward a bit to let it continue to play out...

Sounds like a strange solution but I have found that it actually works......

Its a trick i was shown years ago by a therapist........
 

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How can a person keep in living if they have no thought process whatsoever?
i had it.. just like most people did here.. would u rather me tell him to just neck himself? when im just speaking facts as in keep pushing through the bullshit just like most and ull get ur thought process back, i had ZERO things go through my brain for months as well, 1 of the worst symptoms ever, it does come back, what do u want me to say bud?
 
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