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·Hey i'm new to this and i just wanted some opinions on whether i have dp or not. The first time i'm really sure i had it was when i was with two friends. We were smoking weed but this time i really freaked out like i was losing sense of reality and kept having to remind myself where everything was, like where my house was from where we were. Next morning i felt pretty normal but about midday i started completely flipping out. I got all the classic symptoms like everything was a dream, i couldn't be sure of who i was or if i was myself which leads to circular thoughts because who is thinking that i don't feel like i'm myself. Seeing family was also really freaky, i just found them strange distant characters and i seemed to loose my connection to them. After about four days of really intense dp it started to placate. Then i started looking on the net and found out about dp and i felt like i just knew thats what it was. Then a lot of other stuff made sense, like i've always thought about god/life/universe sort of stuff all the time. My friends always said i was a sort of distant and i know i never felt comfortable just talking about normal stuff (guy talk) which i just thought of as inane most of the time. And I also remember every time i smoke weed before the incident (about 6 times) i always felt odd the next day like i was still dreaming but it was fairly mild and nobody else i knew got it. And also i remeber i've always had these kind of mini flip outs where i'de be sitting in a lecture and suddenly nothing would make sense and i just question everything and nothing would seem normal even thought it was but in like ten seconds the feeling would be gone. It been about 4 months since i really flipped out bad and now i'm paranoid about whether i have it or not and maybe i'm just making the whole thing up in my head which causing me to think this way. Its hard to tell whether i have it or not, i mean i still feel distant from everyone (i feel like my family and friends are in a different world), so I get really lonely. I still probably think about things too much things which are simple. I do recogonise myself in the mirror but i don't feel like there's much there. I don't feel connected to memories of myself, looking at photos only one month old and i don't really see that person as myself. I don't get the really strong sensations anymore but i still have these mild feelings that i feel still controls me and it generally makes me feel crap for the majority of the time. Also, i've just started waking up in the night worrying about stuff that either doesn't exist or doesn't really matter. Any comments on whether you think i've actually got dp or not would be appreciated, thanks.
