[Chicane]

This is something I don't see discussed on here very often, and yet it's a worrisome symptom for me and I'm sure many others with DP.

Confabulation is basically when your mind plays tricks on you regarding memories - you might think something happened when it didn't, or confuse one memory with another, or attribute something to a certain person, time or place when it was actually another person, time or place. I suppose some might call them false memories.

In any case, this was the one symptom that, looking back, made me feel like I was legitimately losing my mind when the worst of my DP symptoms kicked in. It's amazing how frightening a little thing like "you said you were coming over tomorrow, right?" when it was really today, can be. When you have enough of those types of situations back to back, you start to really worry. It was the one thing that put my anxiety into overdrive when DP really began kicking my ass.

I remember sitting with my SO in a restaurant one time, arguing with her over something she e-mailed me. She had mentioned certain things in that e-mail, and I was relaying some of those things back to her, but getting the facts wrong. She was going "no... no, that's not what I said" and I was so freaked out about my confabulation at the time that I was fighting with her out of sheer anxiety - just purely to say "I'm not really fucking crazy, am I?"

I'll never forget that meal. I was going "no, you can't have said that, that's not what you wrote" and yet when I later checked my e-mail I saw that she was right, and I was wrong.

I would say I have it slightly less now than I did in the beginning of my DP journey, but as far as shitty and anxiety-inducing symptoms go, it's up there. Anyone else have (or had) trouble with this, specifically? I've been wondering how common it is with DP in general.

 

[Wendy]

Hell yes - all the time.

From early February of this year, I've been suffering from severe brain fog and this is one of the symptoms I have often. Days will blend together and my memories of what has happened or what will happen have been altered a lot. It's also a lot about what someone said to me. I'll wrongly remember text message information or a line in an email which makes me feel like I'm going crazy.

I've chalked it down to acute anxiety, though. When the brain is far too focused on unreality and anxiety, it would make sense that memory issues would coincide. That's just how I see it, though.