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Complete Destruction Of What Is Anthony

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I know longer feel what once was my personality. The most overpowering feeling is that I don't know who I am or what my life history is. It's like I have tottally forgotten myself, family and friends and yet... I can't even feel emotions towards this.

I find myself doing regular activities and start asking myself... what the hell is this that I'm doing, how did I get into this, what am I, what is this... an activity as simple as sitting eating your breakfast. Everything is paranormal to me.

What I did in the morning... I seem to forget later on that day or when I remember... its like it never happened... an out and out dream.

How did I learn to eat, how did I learn to talk, fuck how the hell did I learn to open a can of beer, WHERE DO MY WORDS COME FROM!?!?! I dunno... its like I'm an automated machine with no feeling of ones self or surroundings.

I don't think I can carry on to find the words to describe everything I'm feeling.

It's Bad. :(

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Imagine, just to say I relate totally with what you are saying, I am having ongoing bout of this - not feeling connected to myself or surroundings, not feeling emotions towards friends and family - and like you express it feels awful - i.e. feels something - that one cannot connect at the normal level with thoughts, feelings, actions, - actually it makes me cry a lot - therefore one can only assume one's feelings towards our external world are in there somewhere, but for some reason we cannot access them and that they will return - how long have you had this episode for? Hang on in there - that is what everyone says to me.

Sarah x
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