[person3]

i feel i should purge this post out

my life seemed to go in periods of four years for a very long time. i wonder what the next four years will be like.

this last four year set kind of bled into eight years but whatever

it's like i'm going through the same cycles in real life...the same situations with guys, the same situations with myself, etc. and the cycles are becoming more visible but at the same time nearly impossible to resist. none of this seems to make sense yet
i'll type more later.

the cycles. i have to get out of the cycles i repeat over and over. I swear to god they're different every time but they're not. they're more visible now. but it's just so hard to stop sometimes. i'll feel ok...do good things, then something will go wrong and i'll be like "fuck it, back to the cycle" well there. i did spell it out. but i know i'm not going to be doing myself any favors tonight. it just makes me too lonely to do the right thing and sit at home and study for the god damned real estate exam.

or decide which country i'm going to go volunteer at

ugh i just need my head cleared

 

[g-funk]

I really would like my head cleared too.
Do you think that one day we might be able to go to the doctors and get our 'fog drained' like getting our ears or sinuses done?

I have cycles too, when the nights get lighter, it plays havoc with my sense of, well, whatever it is that causes this crap. About May time I always get jittery.

Hope your next 4 years are good 'uns

 

[person3]

thank you

my cycles are more something I create, though. it's weird.

I know what I'm doing and I don't want to stop it. I quite like it sometimes.